fading away.

2008-03-30T22:42:00.002+08:00

Sorry abt the previous post.
Just getting something outta of my chest.
And, i am pretty fine now.
I wont succumb to emotions.
That's for sure, i promise.
(:

p.s. as for the other issue. I hope to resolve. And sorry again for using those words which i dont mean to cos i am not good at using words.

I pity the living, envy for the dead.

2008-03-28T19:31:00.006+08:00

the tormenting emotions are within me.
I may seemed like i am happy, in actual fact, i am crying inside.
__________________________________
Now, i am considered a jailed bird. Literally, i have NO life. My life is controlled by others. FUCK. Do you know i am driven into desperation to ... Not only that. I almost gave up on living. I wanted to gave up sooo much on living in this world.

SHE called HER, telling her that i have been going home late and blah blah... and so, i have a FUCKING study plan which means staying in school to do at least one of the topics that i am not sure of. And, i have to fucking go home at before ten everyday. I dunno whether is it inclusive of the weekends or whatever. FUCK! I feel like a jailed bird. I dont have a life. Everything, FUCKING everything is controlled by HER.

Yesterday. i puked badly. I was so stressed that i broke down and cried for a full fucking bucket of tears. I cried for almost 2o mins or so. Crap. I feel that i am tormented by others, FREAKING CONTROLLED BY OTHERS, TAKEN ADVANTAGE BY OTHERS.. WHATSOEVER. NO one in my fucking ... wants to hear my fucking reasons. I am so fucking hell stressed here and there you are assuming that my life is so uber fucking great. Cmon, i am NOT! To you guys, fucking exhausted is not an excuse. I am sooo stressed that i can barely take it anymore. I am collasping any moments and do you know that i want to die RIGHT NOW. Do you know how much i want to use death as a form of escapism. DO you know how much fucking hell load of stress i am facing. Not only schoolwork, not only friends that are in need for help, not only the school teachers which i couldnt say out the fucking reasons here or else i might get sue or whatsoever shit and SHE and YOU PPL. I find that i have no reasons or whatsoever to live here now. I feel like just letting go of everything. I tried so hard now to pay attention in class and also, to understand and master the topics well. And there YOU guys are believe that i cant do it, believing that i am still the same, beliving that i have changed... whatsoever.
Yes, i have said it on my previous post. I have changed BUT by who? I have said this one hundred and million times, it is cos of YOU ppl. NOT anyone else. I didnt changed. CIRCUMSTANCES HAVE FUCKING FORCE ME TO CHANGE. I TRIED TO BE HAPPY AND GET ALONG WITH IT AND JUST SHUT MY FUCKING MOUTH TRYING HARD NOT TO DEBATE OR ARGUE BACK. I TRIED EVERY SINGLE FUCKING THING JUST TO MAKE THE SITUATION CHANGE ABIT. BUT WHAT DO I GET EVENTUALLY? NOTHING. I FEEL WORSE THAN MIRA MASI, WORSE THAN CORDELIA, WORSE THAN ANYONE ELSE IN THE FUCKING SHAKESPEARE'S FICTIONAL CHARACTERS.

FUCK, JUST THINGS DOESNT SEEMED RIGHT. DISAPPOINTED IS THE ONLY FUCKING WORD YOU KNOW HOW TO USE TO SCOLD ME, TIRED IS NOT AN EXCUSE. WHATEVER. I AM JUST A DEAD FUCKING SOUL TRYING TO FIND MY FAITH BACK..

but, dear god! change me, change the situation. I am losing my hope to live here and losing strength. ='(

2008-03-28T12:50:00.000+08:00

This Is My Life, Rated
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I dont know how.

2008-03-25T22:08:00.004+08:00

No one knows how i really feel now.
Everything is bottling inside.
I am like a bottle of coke,
with a catalyst reaction like a tube of mentoes,
I will explode in no time.
This time,
that sentence struck me like a bolt of lightning.
I almost breakdown when i heard it.
I wanted to retort,
in the end,
I swallowed my pride and decided not to.
Not only that,
I have 'recieved' scoldings many times today,
what is wrong with everyone?
And its not my fault most of the time.
Whatever.
Also, i received my other diploma grade,
well it sucks to the max.
I have to retake it.
Tell me where can i fork out that money to retake.
I am tired, very very tired.
God, i know you are up there seeing all the things i am going through now.
I just need you to give me that lil helping hand.
I am blowing my top to almost everyone, recently.
I cant help it.
I cant control it.
I know that should not, but really cant do it.
I am pressurised by so many things.
It is not about the school stuffs.
Its like... so many things that are so attached and dear to me.
Like i said to you, dear father god,
I want to just go when i reached the age of 20.
I need that peace and comfort in your kingdom.
I am feeling so weird now.
Instead of blasting out now at home,
I kept quiet.
Just like a tamed animal.
I dunno how to help myself or help others now.
Other than, today's PE i really believed that it was partially my help that the napfa winners-to-be made the timings. I am so proud of you guys. (: Strive harder! I will be there to support you guys.
Be it spirtually or physically. (:
I believed that,
with or without me,
it doesnt matter.
And,
I am sorry that i feel so pessmistic now.

have i found?

2008-03-24T22:44:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i feel that no one really knows me other than god. I am not making a cliche statement, but think abt it, throughout my life, whom can i really confine in? Nobody, i tried confining to my mum. Did it work? HELL NO! Did i try to communciate with my family members that are really close to me? HELL NO! They have their own probs as well.Sometimes, i really want someone to be with me always, just to let me pour my sorrows and happiness. I want that feeling of being recognised, i want that feeling that i am at least known to someone.

Sometimes, when i try to talk to someone my feelings, they will either say their own stories or say 'whoa lao! Yours not so bad lar!' Cmon man, i realised that i can only to pour out to god. He is the only one who moulds me and knows me well. Other than that, it is not that friends do not know me well, it is just that, i feel closer to god and sometimes, i dont think that i have found the right person to talk and to confine my probs. Everyone can say 'tell me your probs, share with me, i can help you' In fact, who can really really help me? Sometimes, i am so troubled that i dont haave anyone to turned to. Sometimes, i am sick of all these shit and who can i turned to? Sometimes, i have to struggle and learnt to be more independent and brave,but deep inside, am i really courageous to brave through all storms? I have no clue. The only way to give me assurance is GOD. I dunno what to say, but i know that he knows me the best.

I am not trying to psycho ppl saying that god is so good or whatever. THAT is my PERSPECTIVE. Whatever it is, i just want to share my sorrows, happiness and everything to that special someone. It can be a friend, a close relative, or anything. At least, if i have that special someone, i wont be alone again.

coffeebean.

2008-03-22T21:59:00.006+08:00

Here are some funny camwhores shots taken at batok coffeebean. (:

joyce's and liwen's hands ah!

we spill the milk.oops.

crazy ppl.

cmon! we looked alike! (:

interesting. (:

bored.. just too bored.

The CIP pictures are HERE!
or you guys can view it at the right side of the bar. (: ((:

CIP day.

2008-03-20T22:31:00.007+08:00

looked at the artwork! Its lovely right? (:

the place is kind of run down.

champa helping out. (:

bert. (:

one of the best artist's artwork. (: I love it. (: And the bid starts from 10$ BUT, ms low chopped it 1st. (:

Trying to be a retard.lol. And its joyce recieving the thing.

dunno what joyce doing. haha so kuku.

arranging of plaques.

Our dearest MS choo! THANK YOU SO MUCH!

our dearest A2 ppl diligently cutting out the shapes. (:

Its a rare sight to see pam doing CIP and getting involved and saying that she LOVES it. (: haha really! (:

the plaques that we made. (: pretty huh!(:

Today CIP day was a SUCCESS!!!! ((: Thanks to our DEAR o7A2 class! (: I must say that we are really very very corporative even though we had to start our job at 1.30pm. From 8am to 12pm we were cutting the shapes of the fruits and also the sponges. And we were having so much fun. Christine and bella helped me to decorate the plaque. (: Everyone was practically involved in the CIP project. Despite, it was a last min thing due to some reasons. But, oh well we have managed to complete it, i felt a sense of acheivement and joy! (: Oh let me share what we have done today!

We went to this place for the intelectual disabled adults (IDA) place and we felt really lucky cos we dont have to suffer all these. Oh yeah! There was this guy, should be around his mid 20s came to us and shaked hands. He was really nice. (: He gave us a very very warmth handshake. At that pt of time, i felt that it was so.. WOW! And its come from his heart! (: Even though he is partially disabled, but he still managed to do all these basic courtesy. I was rather proud of them cos they are really very very nice adults!(:
At 1.30pm, Bella was in charge of the art and craft making session. (: And yeah, everyone was helping the IDA ppl. I can see everyone's effort in helping them (: I am really happy. Everyone was having fun, and i can see that from their eyes and their efforts in making all the postcards and cards. All the prints are done by our dearest A2 pl. (: It was really hard for us to make all these shapes! We have to crack our brains to think of what to cut out. (: And there is this incident that Bern told me..She was assisting this old man to do the art and craft thing, but he was feeling sleepy so halfway of the lesson, he dozed off. But after some time, he woke up again feeling a lil fresher and started stamping it again!(: hahaha. So proud of them! Some really did a good job in the making of the cards. (: We intend to sell these cards to help those needy. (: Cheerio!
After that, Ms low,joyce, bert, melvin, justin, bella, christine and alfred(the in charge of that place) and me were judging the artworks and give the top 5 artists a handmade plaque. (: It was done with great efforts alright! ((:
At 2.30pm, they were playing some pass the parcel game and the musical chair thingy,and the finale, the sing-along session. (: As for the games part, i think they were really spontenous in playing. (: There was this orange guy very entu in the games and everything and we gave him the BEST ENTU 'TREE' AWARD'08' and the 'BEST ARTIST'S AWARD '08. He earned it.(: Really from his face, you really can see that he is jubliant and was really actively involving of the stuffs. (:
As for the sing along session, melvin is the pianist as per usual and CHAMPA is the lead singer ! (: how cool is that! (: And yeah, we were very actively particpating too. And let me tell you, those shots that contained melvin, bert and keith were priceless shots! (: We didnt know that they can be so actively joining the games and art and craft session. (:
And so, we gave away the best 5 artists awards. We gave away the best pass the parcel award, and 3 the muscial chair awards. Initally, we wanted to play the hunter and squrriel game but there was not enough time, so we inpromptu, gave away the best entu ' tree' 08 to one male and female. (: Some of them, come up to me and wanted the plaques! haha. I must say i am really pleased by all of them . And, i really enjoyed my time there unlike cindy's class. They only viewed artifacts, and liwen's class, knocking on each door to help to clean up the rented flats but were rejected by the residents. LOL. Anyway, ours is really a BIG BIG SUCCESS! ((: THANKS TO MS WENDY CHOO , MS LOW AND EVERYONE IN A2 ,FARIZ AND ALSO THE IDA PPL WHO REALLY PLAYED A HUGE PART IN IT TO MAKE IT A SUCCESS! ((:

I have learnt many things today. (: It makes me feel that we are really lucky to be living in a healthy conditions compared to them(: Their place was quite rundown and we have such cosy place to live in and relax. Joyce told me that they still using the dial-up for the internet access (like which century they living in. LOL.) but, it is cos they rarely used it and its cheaper. They cant afford to have such exp things. (: Therefore, we must give them a reaching hand.I hope that our students will buy the artworks and all profits will go to them. (: Its a blessing to help, and its also a blessing to recieve. (: I thank god for giving me these wonderful opp and broadening up my perspective and opened up my eyes to see the world. (:
Btw, happy easter day for tml! (:
Pictures will be uploaded soon. (: check it out on the right side of the bar. (:

miscommunciation

2008-03-18T20:41:00.003+08:00

Credits to Desmond! (: I like the designs! And sorry for not turning up for the BBQ. =(
I think its mis-communciation for many many things. I must learn to be more rash and less implusive. I am trying to curb my temper and also, learn to change the my perspective and the way things worked. I am not saying everything that is negative abt myself. I am just reflecting my thoughts.

And, today was a total screwed up day. Shawn and I were absent and Melvin was sent home cos he has to cut his freaking long hair lol. And left cheryl who is alone doing the AEC project. The worst thing is that we have booked the timeslots for all the teachers that we supposed to interviewed and in the end, only cheryl is in school. I have no choice but to go back to school and helped my teammate.=X I have to go to the batok polyclinic to take MC and rushed back to school to set up the props and stuffs and invited teachers for the interview. But to out dismay, the bell rang, and cheryl had to go back for lesson. =( crap. So joyce and i went back to the clinic to take the MC. My head hurts when i was rushing here and there. =X ARGH! And yeah, I must say a BIG SHOUT OUT TO JOYCE! Thank you very much for printing me the qnses and also helping us in the project! (: Tong, too! (: Thank you so much! ((: And yeah, after the clinic, we went to eat our so called breakfast cum lunch cum early dinner meal. We brought it around wherever we go. And yeah abt 4 pm we had our PROPER meal. =X And so, after that we rushed back to borrow books for the props and all the stuffs. It was a rush! Luckily, we managed to did in in a nick of time. We interviewed a no of teachers and we were happy that we didnt change the timeslots or the days. We were really lucky! (: And, there were mis communciations among oursleves and we didnt know some things that we are not supposed to do. =( ARGH! Oh well, we will try to communciate better next time! (: Anyway, thank you so very much.

Lastly, to liwen. Dont be discouraged by your timings or anything. (: At least, you have try your best! Dotn worry there will be better races to come and you are able to EXPLODE and show them your power! I have total faith in you! (: Cheers. (: Well done.

FUCK.

2008-03-17T22:38:00.002+08:00

It has been at least thousand and one time i have been saying this word-FUCK! It just blabber out from my mouth and yeah, i really cant stand it. ARGH! Dont read this if you find that all i do on my blog is jusst scolding and ranting. Oh well, i dont give a DAMN ANYMORE. I JUST WANT MY FUCKING FREEDOM AND YOU JUST PLEASE, LET GO OF ME. I CANNOT TOLERATE IT ANYMORE. I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY. AND YOU DONT EVEN BOTHER TO CALL MY HOME TUTOR WHEN I TOLD YOU SHE WANNA TO SPEAK TO YOU. WHATEVER. I TRIED TO TALK TO YOU AND DID MY FUCKING BEST. WHATEVER LAR HUH. LIKE IT ANOT, I AM NOT GONNA TO TAKE A STEP FORWARD TO ADMIT THAT I AM IN THE FUCKING WRONG. I AM NOT GOING TO. DO YOU KNOW THAT HOMEWORK AND OTHER WORDLOADS ARE PILING UP? DO YOU KNOW THAT HOW STRESSFUL TO STUDY AND HOW STRESSFUL EVEN IF YOU GOT A FUL STRAIGHT AS AND CANNOT ENTER A UNI? DO YOU KNOW HOW STRESSFUL FACING ALL THESE FUCKING STUFF IS? DO YOU KNOW HOW WE, THE STUDENTS FEEL? INSTEAD OF GIVING SUPPORT, ALL YOU DID IS JUST SCOLDING AND SCOLDING. ESP AT THAT POINT OF TIME WHEN I AM REALLY SICK AND YOU JUST RANTED AT ME TO EAT MY MEDICINE. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS? WELL, I DONT NEED YOUR FUCKING SYMPATHY NOR ANYTHING. I JUST WANT YOU TO GET AWAY MY LIFE. HERE I AM TRYING MY BEST AND FEELING MOTIVATED TO DO WELL IN EVERYTHING OR TRIED AT LEAST, AND I GOT SCOLDINGS FROM TEACHERS DO YOU KNOW? IT IS NOT CAUSE I DIDNNT DO MY WORK, IT IS BECAUSE SOMETIMES I FALL ASLP IN CLASS DUE TO THE FACT THAT I BLOG THIS AT SUCH A LATE TIME. I JUST NEED A PLACE TO VENT OUT ALL MY FUCKING ANGER AND MY FUCKING THOUGHTS. JUST STAND IN MY SHOE AND THINK. IF A LVL IS REALLY THAT YOU CANT TAKE IT? OR YOU THINK THAT A LVL IS LIKE O LVL ,YOU ARE SO FUCKING WRONG. IT IS DIFFERENT IN MANY, MANY MANY FUCKING WAYS. I CANT STUDY AT HOME, WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO? ALL YOU WANT ME TO DO IS TO STAY AT HOME?WHAT IS THIS? AND YOU SO WANNA TO COMPLAIN TO MY THEM, GO AHEAD, YOU CANT STAND IT, NEITHER DO I. WELL, THEY LISTENED TO YOU MORE THAN THEY ARE TO ME. SO WHATEVER, I DONT CARE AND AT MOST WHEN I AM IN A SIRE STRAITS STATE, I WONT GO AND ASK FOR YOU HELP. THAT'S IT.

rhyme.

2008-03-13T22:31:00.002+08:00

oh well, today i shall not RANT at my blog. I should talk about yesterday and today. Yesterday was my 1st time going back to training, after sooo long period of time. =( Alfred thought that i was kidnapped by mas selamat! LOL. -_-''Anyway, it feels sucky when you 1st stepped back to track again. It feels different. You feel that everyone is improving OR already at that tip top level whereas you still remained at this level. Unchanged. Or probably, deproved. =( I feel that i shouldnt have skipped all that trainings, i feel that i shouldnt have fall sick and rest for months! I feel that i should just go for it. =( Argh, now its too late. All are back to square one. Seeing liwen and atiqah running, i have a mixture of emotions. They are fast.Really fast! When i see them using the starter's block, i got the adrenaline rush to used it too even though i dont know how to used it. =( I want to run fast, but now i could only concentrate on my drills and my speed. I feel that i have deproved so i MUST MUST work hard for it. In due of time, i shall joined them. I shall not be disheartened. =D

I hope that this sunday's race, they can really performed WELL! (: YES! THEY WILL. (: Do us proud! ((:

Today, IRIS and YOKE KEE AND me met up, we have quite a long session of talk but tml iris is going back to taiwan again-=( Every time, we meet up, she have to leave the next day. Sigh. =( And its a misture of feelin again whenever we meet up. I feel that we are back to the good old times. Still in sec school, and in our uniform and hanged out. Now, 3 years have flied, and things are different and the way we see things are different too. But our friendship remains strong. (: I hope that we will still get to hang out more often. Most of the time, its me who doesnt have the time. I should hae proper time managment. (: Well, i am really VERY VERY HAPPY to see the both of them and THANK YOU IRIS for buying us the hokkaido chocolate !(: Its uber nice. (: so sweet of you.(:

anyway, have a smooth journey and see you in 2 weeks time! (:
loves.

that's it.

2008-03-10T23:24:00.003+08:00

I tried to talk to her nicely and hear her out nicely, but that DOES IT. I Cant. SHE kept firing me like some fucking machine gun. Hello! And SHE put 2 DIFFERENT FUCKING ISSUES TOGETHER AS ONE which has no fucking link at all. DISAPPOINTED IS ALL YOU CAN SAY. WHATEVER. I DONT GIVE A FUCKING SHIT. THAT IS WHY I DONT WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE NOR FACING THAT PLACE SO LONG. I RATHER STAY OUT LATE IN THE NIGHT THEN FACING YOU. I TRIED TO COME HOME EARLY TO PLEASE YOU AND TO FACE YOU CALMLY. YET, YOU GIVE ME THAT FUCKING TONE AND THAT FUCKING FACE.

DONT EVER TELL ME WHAT TO DO. I AINT GONNA TO LISTEN. YOU GIVE ME THAT KIND OF ATTITUDE, I AM GOING TO GIVE YOU DOUBLE THE DOSAGE. BUT, I DIDNT DO THAT. I WANTED TO TRY HER WAY. HER WAY WHICH IS TO TAKE A STEP BACK AND DONT ARGUE. HA! HA! WHAT A FUCKING JOKE! IT IS PURE NONSENSE. JUST COS OF ONE FUCKING COMMON TEST, YOU ARE TREATING ME LIKE THAT. WHATEVER LAR HUH. YOU GO YOUR FUCKING WAY AND I WILL GO MY WAY. SOMETIMES, I REALLY THINK THAT I DO HATE YOU. I LOVE OTHERS MORE THAN YOU. YOU THINK YOU ARE SO YAYA-PAPAYA, GO AHEAD. I AM NOT GONNA TO LISTEN ALL THESE SHIT. YOU CAN BLAST AT ME AS MUCH AS YOU WANT, BUT I DONT GIVE A SHIT. I HAVE ALTERNATIVE WAYS TO DEAL YOUR STUPID NONSENISCAL FUCKING GODDAMN ARGUEMENT WHICH YOU THINK YOU ARE SOOOO FUCKING RIGHT ABT IT. I DONT HAVE TO LISTEN TO YOU ANYMORE, COS I AM OLD ENOUGH TO KNOW WHAT I AM DOING. I KNOW THAT WHATEVER THINGS I NEED FROM NOW ON, I WILL FIND MY WAY TO GET. IF I HAVE TO WORK TO EARN WHAT I HAVE TO GET, SO BE IT.

I AM MYSELF,AN INDIVIDUAL WHO WILL NOT SUBDUE TO YOUR FUCKING METHODS AND TO YOUR OWN PERSPECTIVE OF THINKING THAT YOU ARE THE EVERYTHING ON TOP OF THE WORLD. YOU MEANT WELL, SO? THAT DOESNT PROVE THAT YOU HAVE TO ALWAYS USED THAT FUCKING BITCH TONE TO TALK TO ME OR GIVE ME THAT SICKENING ATTITUDE TO FACE ME. IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH ME, I CAN JOLLY WELL MOVED OUT, YOU DONT HAVE TO 'INVITED' ME OUT, JUST TELL ME AND I AM SO FUCKING GLADLY TO DO SO AND I CANT WAIT TO OPEN A CHAMPAGNE TO CELEBRATE THAT JOYOUS OCCASION.

I AM BLOGGING THIS QUITE CALMY AND RATIONALLY. I KNOW WHAT I WANT AND I KNOW WHAT IT IS TO TAKE ME GO THAT FAR. I KNOW THAT I AM ABLE TO PROVE HER WRONG, BUT NOW IS NOT THE TIME. YOU THERE, YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN MY STYLE BY NOW OR UNDERSTAND AT LEAST A PORTION OF ME. YET, YOU DONT. OH WELL, FORGET IT. I WISH I DIDNT HAVE YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE. I WISH I WAS DEAD WHEN I WAS BORN. ONLY THAT, I DONT HAVE TO FACE YOU!

perplexed.

2008-03-09T23:19:00.002+08:00

I have been trying to find out why is she like this. I have beeen wanting to explain things to her and cleared up the matter, but i think it has become worse now. I wish she was just HER,SHE or probably THEM are so much better than her. She said that i have changed. Did i? Have i? I dont think so. She feels that i have. I sweared i cant communciate with her. There is this barrier and i couldnt overcome it. I tried. But, time after time, it has failed. Life like this, CRAP!

I need some advice. And it is not because of others, i have changed. It is actually YOU! You who made me run to others. Instead of running towards you, i have drifted. Further than before. Things are not the way it seems. Please, looked it at a different perspective. And do NOT put blame, i repeat, DO NOT put blame onto others. It is not their fault. I have lost that comfort zone ever since god knows when. YOU, and YOU ALL made me run to a complete stranger to pour my sorrows out.

Sometimes, i wonder. Are you really helping me and taking me as one that you really love? Or are you taking me just because you have to? I didnt turned bad, neither have i really changed and this is what i really feel. I cant talk to you, i really cant. Others see me and YOU in a different way. Times when i really needed help, you didnt even give a fucking damn to it, and you expected me to help you. Sorry to say, i hold on to grudges only towards YOU. Dont ask me why, ask yourself.I am sure that YOU are able to find out that slowly. Others helped me in so many ways, and i really dont know how to thank them. At least, they bothered to help me or asked me whether i needed help. BUT YOU, instead of helping me, YOU reprimanded me. Just like that time, when i was really really frustrated, you scolded me. What you take me for? I am not a machine to vent anger. If you want, find your boyfriend.. I am different from you. At least, i am achieving something that you are not able to get no matter how much you want it. YOU think that study is sooooo freaking goddamn easy? Try doing it YOURSELF. YOU tried in pri school before and what is the result?? YOU knows more than I do. Sometimes, i am struggling but can you actually see it? And i dont find THAT PLACE, is my comfort zone. I would rather stay out late rather than facing YOU and HIM. Even if i come home early, i would rather face the laptop instead of YOU. YOU gave me that irrating face that i detested the most. And sometimes, I cant stand you. I really cant. At last! When i found someone and the OTHERS, they are able to understand and they talked to me as if i am one of them.

I feel pressurized by YOU. Sometimes, i feel that you are tormenting me. I am drained. PHYICALLY AND MENTALLY DRAINED. I needed help who can i asked? Other than god and OTHERS. ARGH! I feel that mine aint helping me at all. ALL they know is how to scold me and reprimanding me. Sorry to say again, i am stubborn and you ONLY have one way to deal with me. To talk to me rationally and peacefully. I hate it when YOU screamed at me. I HATE IT when you think that i am going out to enjoy myself. WHAT THE FUCK! I aint. Dont test my patience anymore and i wont to you too. Just let me be free. Free from everything.

A lvl results (:

2008-03-07T21:56:00.002+08:00

we are actually supposed to do our econs project and there we go- cam whoring!

girls just wanna to have fun!

my pretty babes!

i love them!

just looked at khalid! how adorable! (:

that was taken last sunday! haha. (: pretty nice shots from joyce's webcam! (: haha. And congrats to one and all for their superb performance in the A level!(: haha Esp my cousion! haha She scored damn well larh! As well, as fan zhi, ee cheong, and the rest.. ((: yeah, well done man! (:

to live is to love.

2008-03-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

Nothing much has been going on, except the fact that we are all busy with our own stuffs. And as for class t-shirt, more or less we are done. The design that we made was really a tough one=( I must say a BIG THANK YOU to joyce!(: Without her help, i cant complete it and also, fan zhi for lending me a helping hand. ((:

There are so much things that i wish to say, i want to say. But i cant, simply cant. =( Life is somewhat different from what it is from the past. I wish time could just turned back. =( Oh well, whatever. Orientation was really fun, especially dancing to the song-I need to know! (: that reminds me sooooo much of A3 class. How i really miss them now. =(

My results for common test is pretty sucky. I think i have flunked my econs, gp, lit(that is needless to say) and math as well. HOHOHO! Crappercrapshit.com! This shows that i need to buck up alot during the hoildays! =X I think others; results are pretty much the same as mine. LOL. Well, i cant be bothered now, bcos we are going to have a week's hoildays! woohoo! ((: However, i have to go back for diploma and stuffs like that. ARGH! crap! =(( It seems like there is no break at all!!! =(

And now the pre u one are staying in our school and i cant even differciate who is pre u 1 ,2 or even 3! haha..And now i know how the last year's pre u 2 felt! haha.. Exactly the same way i am feeling now! =X

Lastly,
ALL THE BEST TO THOSE WHO ARE TAKING BACK THEIR A LEVEL RESULTS TML! ((: I BELIEVE THAT YOU GUYS HAVE DONE WELL. ((: CHEERS!

happy sweet 18th birthday, joyce!

2008-03-01T22:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE!!!!!! XD XDXD

Joyce's birthday was a SMASHFUL one!(: haha.. We really put in alot alot of effort despites all the small arguements and stuffs. We bought her a BIG KING RED CRUMPLER bag!(: And a sweet secret cake! haha. I know that she adore crumpler and so we got her one!(: haha. Hope you like it. And yeah, today was a success! Even though, nothing much, but yeah the thought that counts that each and everyone of them has put in. We all made it to her birthday and surprise her with stuffs. And sorry joyce, cos fan zhi and i were late. But yeah, cos we went to collect your cake and also, you didnt tell me we are meeting at that time and we went to the wrong SUSHI restaurant! But nevertheless, we made it and everything turns out fine!(: haha.. yeah, so HAppy birthday and stay youthful!(: cheers!

Thanks fan zhi for taking the stuffs and accompanying me to get those things. Thank you, it was such a great help! And all the best for your common test! (: I know that this KUKUNEHNEH can do it!(: WE will support you! and keep you in my prayer's list! (: just dont get too stressed out! (: Chill yo! xD smiles!

Oh yeah. i got my nike powercat spikes! (: It is uber pretty lar. I loveeee it! I am so gonna to wear it for training. And, i am going back training soon after so many incidents! (: I hope i can perform well or at least complete the training.(: Yupx, so yeah, and hope that more year 1s will join track. (:

Lastly, after so many things. I shall just tolerate it till i cant anymore.

turns.

2008-02-21T12:28:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since i have updated. Oh well, things have been good except for the orientation which occupies so much of our time. And its so last min. pfft. We just make the best out of it yeah?(: The student's council and NE council and sports council should be bonded as one! (:

Chinese New year this year was a very different year. Due to the fact that i have many more ang baos and visting various places. (: Thank you very much.

Common test is a big screwed up for me. I attained only an E for my chinese! What on earth is going on! =( I wish i could know the answer right now. =( I dont know what causes me to me like this. =( And i guess for my rest of the subjects i can bid a goodbye for lit.That one is a major failure to me. =( And, as for the rest, i hope i will do well or at least scraped through. =X

I haven been running for ages and last pe on tues, i clocked a timing of 8.24 for 4 rounds. It was uber slow and i forced myself over the limits to run. I wanna to run FAST and FAST and FAST! I wanna to excel and be part of my teammates. sigh, i am now sick again. Crap, i guess i need a full rest and power up! YES! I will be there for training on friday! I promise i wont push myself too hard and i do whatever i can. (:

Thank you to you-know-who, who has been out there for me. Thank you for accompanying me when i am down through smses, thank you for all the time that you have encouraged me. You are really someone whom i really admire the most. Thank you so very much for everything.

Thank you joyce, for being ever there for me and listening to my whinings and helping me to do stuffs when i fall sick. Joyce, you must really take care too. I dont wanna to see you fall sick. And as and when i can, if it is within my capability, i will help you as much as i can too. Thank you.

Thank you to duckie, i wanna to thank you for everything and being so ever perservere not to let me go or letting me fall. Thank you so very much for everything. I really dont know what to do without you. You are my pillar of strength and i wont let you fall that easily as well. Thank you very much. <3

Lastly, god for being there for me. And yeah.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST PAPA. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.
MAY YOU BLESS ALL OF US HERE WITH GOOD HEALTH AND EVERYTHING.
MAY YOU ENJOYED ETERNITY WITH THE HOUSE OF GOD.
I LOVE YOU PAPA.
ALWAYS.
<3

2008-02-07T18:42:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL!!((:
I AM JUST BORED SO YEAH.

A QUOTE THAT I FOUND SOME SOMEWHERE.
no matter how many times you at something, you are never a failure until the day you quit trying.-michael T.Vaisanen

I AM AIMING TO BE LIKE HIM.
(:
ooOh, and the spikes are 85$!! haha.. crap, must learn to save up already! lol. cheers! ((:
ciao!

sweeney todd

2008-02-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

I just watched sweeney todd with fan zhi at the cinema!(: hahaha. Oh man! Its gory but its really nice! (: Its in a form of musical and its so lit lar! (: haha. Guys! Go watch it! haha.. hmm. It is kind of simliar to othello. (: Well i would rate 7.5/10 for the show! haha.. Its really good! I love gory! If you cant stand gory, you cant watch this show man! haha..And johnny depp is damn good actor! (: I like him! haha, I bet kieran is so jealous abt it now. muahahaha. The show is really a sadist. =( And at the end, hmm..i shant say you guys should just watch it! (: haha..
the synopsis...
Johnny Depp and Tim Burton join forces again in a big-screen adaptation of Stephen Sondheims award-winning musical thriller Sweeney Todd. Depp stars in the title role as a man unjustly sent to prison who vows revenge, not only for that cruel punishment, but for the devastating consequences of what happened to his wife and daughter. When he returns to reopen his barber shop, Sweeney Todd becomes the Demon Barber of Fleet Street who shaved the heads of gentlemen who never thereafter were heard from again. Joining Depp is Helena Bonham Carter as Mrs. Lovett, Sweeneys amorous accomplice, who creates diabolical meat pies. The cast also includes Alan Rickman, who portrays the evil Judge Turpin, who sends Sweeney to prison and Timothy Spall as the Judges wicked associate Beadle Bamford and Sacha Baron Cohen is a rival barber, the flamboyant Signor Adolfo Pirelli.

thanks everyone.(:

2008-02-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

the shirts that fan zhi,caiwen,paul and me bought from the warehouse sales! $153! (:

looked at the 4-sided cube! haha.. awesome!

liwen are you envious? haha but yeah, i didnt do it. some guy from NEC did it.(:

joyce tried hard to act like my boyfriend!(: lol.

1stly, yeah i wanna to thank all of you guys out there who shows your concern to me. I appreciated it alot. Thanks. And sorry a2 for being such a bitch and idiot cos i was in a foul mood really. And icant think and act rationally. I am sorry that i breakdown. =( Thank you guys for being with me and thank you ms ong for comforting me as well.(; Thank you so much! And shiming, thanks for calling me and asking me how am i doing. And when i heard your voice i am really very very touched and happy! (: You are always my inspiration! (: Thank you! And liwen, thanks for being with me even though i wasnt with you all the time. (: Thank you so very much my tweenie! Thank you melvin for understanding me and even though your words are kind of harsh, but yeah thanks, you did enlighten me. (: Thank you, humaira for being there for me too even though you really have lots of things to do! I can understand!Thanks babe! (: Thank you joyce for supporting me as well! Even though, you are like me most of the time, but yeah chill alright!(: Everything will be fine! (: Thank you bern for being there for me too!(: I am really happy to have you as a friend!(: You are a great motivator as well!(: Thank you, kieran for being there with me as well when i was really down and you motivated me and asked me to smile more! haha. (: thanks alot my tweenie!(: Thank you fan zhi, for being with me, throughout all my ups and downs, you are always with me. Thank you so very much! Even though, i hurt you so many times. =( Sorry yeah. And lastly, thank you hilmi for making me enlightened. I am really thinking very positively and yeah thank you for your scolding and i wont be negative thinking again i hope for now at least. (:

Alright, after so many thank yous, i am gonna to continue.(; Oh yeah, thanks to liwen for telling me the warehouse sale! haha i love the shirts there! Awesome! If there are anymore such sales, pls tell me! haha i am a typical auntie!(: And yeah., today's lessons are kind of interesting i guess. (: hmmm. And yeah, i cant wait for CNY to come, but i am dreadful for the upcoming common tests! crap! =( I haven really touched anything yet. Maybe i did, but i dont think its enough.=( Life has been quite dull without track. Sigh. When i see them run, it makes me feel that adrenaline rush!I want to heal faster! I am dying to heal faster! (: And yeah, i really hope that this year i got more ang baos! (: hahahaha.. YAY! (:
ciao, ppl. (:

to whom may concern.

2008-02-02T09:15:00.001+08:00

Hilmi, for whatever things you have posted in my tagboard, i understand what you mean. But you dont know my plight, neither you dont know my situation. Dont jump into conclusion and assume that it is like this. Each individual sees things differently, and my perspective is different from yours. I wrote it on my blog is to vent out all my angers and stressed, you can choose not to read it. It is not by force. I know as a senior you want all your junoirs to excel. As much as i do, i cant. People have their lowest peak at some point of time. I need time to stand up and face the reality. I am not saying that i am the worst nor anything. I am just blogging out how i feel. You dont have to sympathsize me cos i dont need anyone of you out there do. I live by myself and i will answer to my own actions. I see things different from how you see it, and i know you are a great athlete, and you have achieved so much despite of your asthmatic probs and family issues. I salute you for that. However, things do not come smoothly as the way it is. I tried release my frustrations and stressed in a different way but it doesnt work. Let me ask you this qns, when a person is at his/her lowest point in his/her life and everything seems crashing down and no one there to help you and you have to deal it with yourself and by yourself, what would you do? I just need time to heal and to solve my situations. And it is not that i DONT want to go for TRAININGS, i want to, but my illness do not allowed me to do so. If you have any form of internal illness, will you recover fully and go back for training or regardless of whatever the outcome is, you go for it? I used to do that. I used to 'hack care' of any illnesses just for the sake of going training and to excel and to push beyond my limits. I want to run as much as you do. Circumstances do not allow me to do so. You get it.My parent and my relatives do not allow me to go back for training and running stands a big role in my life even though i am not the best of the best. You are disaappointed with me, i have got nothing to say. No matter what, i will still regard you as my senior whom i respect. Let me sort out my thoughts and think rationally alright? And thank you for your advice.

Omy, thanks for your advice, btw, who are you? are you my gp teacher? I apologise for using such poor standard of english to blog my porblems. Thanks for your advice.

2008-02-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

Lee Ann Womack - I Hope You Dance lyrics

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone

(:

2008-01-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

What Fiona Means

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.
You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.
Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I got this from liwen's blog! (:
Pretty true! haha.
oh well, things have been going pretty stale. =(
Been talking to a couple friends that i am close with.
And sometimes, i feel like like a jerk.
BUT I ought to feel optimistic.
I am trying.
Things have been weighing me down.
I wish i had a solution guide book with me.
I need spiritual guidance.
=(
Whoever is it out there,
you know who you are,
just sympthasize me alright?
Its not like you never done had that before.
I feel hurt.
Deeply.
I cant stop those thoughts coming in and out of my head.
ARGH!
I just need,
a support,
an encouragement,
a hope,
from you guys.

agony.

2008-01-24T09:35:00.000+08:00

I am feeling so bad now. Everything seems crashing down. I have no idea, how it comes about and why did it happened. School is a chore, studying is stressful, relationships are sour, and myself, i dunno who am i now. I have seemed to lost myself. Currently, i am studying at King albert's park mac and i just got scolded by a FUCKING auntie for eating outside food. Yeah, i know its my fault but dont have to get me that kind of attitude that i should deserved. CRAPPERCRAPSHIT.COM! I just feel that life isnt the same anymore. My mum, my everything.. even my most beloved track.. they are no longer by my side. All i need is god. Or perhaps escapism. I need a breather. Even though, i didnt go school, that doesnt mean that i am not stressful. In fact i am. I just hope that all will just go away in a matter of time. I wish my grandma and papa will be with me now. I need parental support. That is the basic of all. And i dont even have it. BUt yeah, i am happy that my aunt actually accompany me to see a specialist and she paid for me. I am thankful for that god. (:

Seriously, remembered my last year's wish? I hope it will fufilled real soon. Pls god, i know i shouldnt be here in the 1st place. You put me here for a purpose. And i guess i am done with the mission and pls take me with you. I wanna to be by your side every now and then to serve you. I regretted so much things. I wish that i will be able to go back to your arms.All i need is you. =( Amen.

I aint myself.
Dont consider this as an emo post.
Its just what i am thinking now.
I feel that i am no longer i.
God,
grant me THAT wish OF MINE!
bless me.
(:

blog reactivated.

2008-01-23T10:43:00.000+08:00

the sprinters and trackers. (:

RI AND MI.. ((: coolio!

the big massive grp! (:

the different is different game! ((:

I decided to re-activated my blog. Just a sudden rush that i feel like doing so.
Sport Camp,
it was uber fun! I met ppl from age 14-20. Range from Mi, poly and secondary schools. (: We really have lotsa of fun despite we had to do our assignments late in the night.=( And, Thanks to Uk shyam and Mr C.kunalan's talks. (: I am really feeling the adrenaline rush to run;to sprint. ((: The funniest things are that, the camp food they provide is real good! haha and the supplier is from bukit batok! haha..(: And liwen and I got to bonded with all the rest of the ppl only 5 hrs before the camp breaks. (: haha.. The cheers and the games are really fun! (: Thanks ppl. (: And i thought RI ppl were cold and smart. Haha. I guess i am stereotyping. =X They are infact, DAMN DAMN SMART AND DAMN DAMN FRIENDLY! HAHA. And not forgetting the poly students,I met sam! My long lost pri school and sec friend! haha.. Suprised that he will be there too! (: Poly ppl are real nice too! hohoho! (: The rest of the sec school ppl are really friendly too and i guess we are really sad that we have to be parted. =( Its okay, we will have outing alright! (:

Monday,
i was absent from school due to excessive coughing and over-exhaustion. I thought i have recovered. I didnt.=( And NOW, wednesday, i am ABSENT from school again. This time, it is serious. =( I am going to Mount Eliazabeth to have my backbone and spine check. =( Yesterday night was terrible. I couldnt walked properly and my mum is still angry with me. crap. I want to heal fast and polyclinics and pivate clinics dont help at all. I have to go to a specialist! I want to RUN again. I found myself back again, but due to this, it makes me feel so lost. I have lost my sense of self. I was so vexed yesterday that i break down. I have been missing lessons and i really feel the tension and worried. Most of all, the things that i am most concerned abt are my studies and track! I want to study well and do well for common test. I want to train and be stronger and be faster. Everytime, i said something like that, ppl wont wanna to believe me that i can actually have the will to do it. Ppl will say i NATO.(no action, talk only.) ARGH! I want to run and everyone in my team is excelling EXCEPT ME! EXCEPT ME!!! How am i feeling now? TERRIBLE. I guess Alfred is really very disappointed with me, and so do the rest of my teammates. I dont wish things to happened like that. I am sorry. I will get treated real soon and go back to track. ITs my life. no track =no sense of self.

Yesterday, i am sorry that i made you cried, i made you heartbroken, i made you get bruises on your foot, i made you.... so many negative things. I dont wish to.But i am really lost when my aunt scolded me for not resting well, for not healing my backbone, stressed that my studies cant do well, worried that alfred will kicked me out of track, knowing that when i reached home, my mum will scream at me. In fact, she didnt, she was quite pissed with me. .SUPER PISSED! I dont know wad to do. =( I shouldnt have said that just to make you go home and study. I know it's my fault. Sorry. You have your stuffs to worried to and i added extra load to you. I caused you so much burden. =( I hope by nw you have forgiven me.

God, there are so much things i wanna to compensate. So much things that i want to rewind. So much things that i wished there shouldnt be existed.. I really need physical help, emotional help and mental help. I am gonna to breakdown real soon. =( God, i hope you really listen to my call and prayer. I need you. =( please, help your child here. Amen.

sick.

2008-01-10T14:07:00.000+08:00

I HATE TO BE SICK AGAIN. BUT THIS TIME ROUND, I HAVE TO WAIT FOR THE BLARDY POLYCLINIC TO RE-FUNCTIONED AGAIN! SO I AM NOW BLOGGING. =( I HATE THE POLYCLINIC SYSTEM. I ALWAYS HAVE TO WAIT FOR AGES FOR MY TURN TO SEE A DOCTOR. CRAP. IT SHOULD BE RESTING AT HOME AND RECOVERED. LAST WEEK, I WAS SICK AND NOW THIS WEEK AGAIN! CRAP! WAD IS WRONG WITH ME. I HAVE NO IDEA.MOREOVER, MY CONTACT LENSES ARE GIVING ME BIG PROBS. THE OPTIMIST SAID THAT MY EYELID INNER TISSUE IS QUITE RED AND ITS TORN.=( ARGH! MEANS I CANT WEAR CONTACTS FOR A WEEK!AND HOMEWORK ARE PILING UP LIKE SOME BIG BIG GUNO GUNO! ARGH! BEING A PRE UNI 2 REALLY SUCKS. DEFINITELY, I NEED A GOOD TIME MANAGEMENT. ALSO, HOW TO IMPROVE ON MY RUN WHEN IT IS LIKE THAT? O.O I WONDER WHY AM I SICK, ALWAYS. =( I HOPE MY IMMUNE SYSTEM WILL GET BETTER. (:

TODAY IS A SERIES OF MIS-UNFORTUNATE EVENTS.
COS, MELVIN LEFT HIS SHOEBAF IN MACDONALDS AND HAVE TO SIGNED OUT JUST TO TAKE HIS SHOEBAG.
JOYCE IS REALLY SICK, SHE SLPT DURING THE GP TIMED ASSIGNMENT.
FIONA IS SICK TOO, DURING THE TIME ASSIGNMENT, SHE FEELS LIKE PUKING AND CRAP COUGH AND COUGH.

I HOPE ALL OF YOU GUYS OUT THERE WHO ARE HEALTHY WILL NOT GET THE VIRUS TOO. ITS SPREADING LIKE WILDFIRE. =(

men go war. women sit and wait.

2008-01-06T01:21:00.000+08:00

this is for chan liwen! DONUTS!! (: This pic is taken from thailand.-mister's donut. haha.(: cheerio!

Have you ever wonder why men go to war? I guess it's for men go to war to fight,to glorify,to save for their country and their loved ones.(: Maybe i am right. Every war that men have to go to, most of them sacrificed themselves. =X They are honoured by many many thousands of ppl, but so what? Their loved ones? They lost their loved ones. Be it- a father, a brother, a husband.. to their loved ones, they are significant. (: War only brings misery to everyone and chaos everywhere. Bloodshed are inevitable. I just pray hard that wars will stopped and will not start in any forms. =(

-just a random post.

pish oh pishy.

2008-01-04T15:11:00.000+08:00

girlfriend, me and joyce.. ((:

Crap, i am currently sick again! I dunno wad is wrong with my immune system damn it. =( ARGH!! How to go back training? Sigh. Everyone is improving EXCEPT ME! DARN it. =((( I have sort out my thoughts and i know i love track and i will stay on and PUSH myself to the limits. Who doesnt want to acheive good results? Who doesnt want to get the top for running? YES! I want to, but i wont be that ego cos i know that i cant really acheived that currently. But, i will work towards my aim. (:

Orientation has drifted my gf and joyce from me. =( I hope orientation will end reallll soon. I miss PAE times. Looking at them, remind me so much of my PAE times. =( And my new class isnt as fun as my old 07A2 class. We seemed to be stucked in our own clique. Sigh. New teachers teaching us and old teachers are gone. They are so right. Pre-u one is honeymoon period. I certainly agree that sentence to a very large extent.. =X Life is different now. We have to mugged hard to acheive good results and homeworks are slowly piling up like some guno. =( ARGH!!! The worst thing is that i have PE on tuesday and thursday, and mon, wed and fri are training days. Geez. Everyday is like fitness day. In due of time, i think all of us will get super fit! LOL. I am sorry i haven been attending trainings due to sickness. I promised, after i recovered fully, i shall go back to gombak and train. (:

P.s. Sigh, how i miss PAE times and 07A3. =X

2008..

2008-01-01T15:55:00.000+08:00

A NEW YEAR, A NEW BEGINNING.
So many things happened during 2007.
There are ups and downs.
There are obstacles that we need to dealt with.
We faced so much things and it has brought us up to another level.
We learnt how to love, share, care even more.
We faced all kinds of emotions.
We know that all these make us grow stronger.
In the year of 2007,
many things have changed.
From the beginning of 2007,
we stepped into MI.
Everything changes.
We met new friends who are really really good.
We had an awesome PAE class that really bonded us together even till now.
We didnt foresee many challenges to come, yet we dealt with them calmly.
We encourages each other to strive on, cos we all know that we can do it.
We managed to push ourselves to our limits to achieved wad we wanted.
We love each and everyone of us and treasured everyone of them dearly.
We fought hard with our fatique, just to accomplished wad we desired.
We faced family, friends, and other extermal probs, but i guess by now,
we know how to deal with it.
We managed to do something which we think that it is impossible but we made it.
We know for sure one thing,
2007,
brings us not only our hardworks, but our happiness, our memories and our laughters.
It has been a year full of happenings and wonderful moments.
Thank you.
(:
As for the year 2008,
many happy things will be coming unexpectedly. (:
I wished you guys a happy and a fruitful year ahead! (: cheerio!
xD

holler-spice girls.

2007-12-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

I wanna make you holler
Imagine us together
Don't be afraid to play my game
Why don't you hesitate
I won't keep waiting for you
To come on let me take
You to my fantasy room
You gonna like it there
And all the things that I do
I'll treat you right
All through the night

We can do anything
I'll take you all the places you wanna be
I'll be your fantasy
Everything you want you will find in me
If you play my game yeah

I wanna make you holler
And hear you scream my name (My name)
I'll give you rules to follow (I'll)
So you can play my game (Play my game)
Imagine us together (Together)
It's driving you insane (Driving you insane)
You will give in to me (into me fine)
Don't be afraid to play my game (To play my game)

So what you're gonna do
Now that I've got you with me
You gotta show me boy
Cause nothing comes for free
Start from the bottom and
work your way absolutely
Don't be afraid to play my game

We can go all night long
Doing things you thought you would never do
I want let you know
I won't tell anyone
What we do it's just for me and you
So come and play my game

I wanna make holler (Ho ho ho)
And hear you scream my name (Scream my name yeah)
I'll give you rules to follow
So you can play my game (You can play me game)
Imagine us together (Imagine us)
It's driving you insane (Driving you insane)
You will give in to me (Into me)
Don't be afraid to play my game

Holler (Holler holler)
And hear you scream my name (Scream my name)
I'll give you rules to follow (Holler holler)
So you can play my game (Play my game)
Imagine us together (Let me know)
It's driving you insane (You insane)
You will give in to me (To play)
Don't be afraid to play my game

We can go all night long
Telling things you thought you would never do
I won't tell anyone
Cause everything we do just for me and you
But you gonna play my game

I wanna make you holler (Holler)
And hear you scream my name (Holler holler)
I'll give you rules to follow (To play)
So you can play my game (You can play my game)
Imagine us together
It's driving you insane (Driving you insane)
You will give in to me (Into me)
Don't be afraid to play my game

Holler
And hear you scream my name
I'll give you rules to follow
So you can play my game
Imagine us together
It's driving you insane
You will give into me
Don't be afraid to play my game

merry xmas? more like a sway xmas this yr. =X

2007-12-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

Sigh, currently i am down with food poisoning. GREATTTTTT after all that bbq and log cake.Everyone didnt get it, except me! WHYYYYY!!! argh!Last year i fell sick and this year again! whoa lao! Wad is wrong with my body? Just becos those cells can detect that 25 dec is xmas, and so, you (cells!) start to havoc?? haha.. But seriously. this year xmas is a totally screwed up! I am down with food poisoning, maira has to deal with some vexing issues in her family, someone killed themselves at the mrt track, etc... Oh man!I hate this year xmas! x(

ANYWAY, THANK YOU FAN ZHI FOR TAKING CARE OF ME JUST NOW. (: In the morning, actually, i wasnt prepared to go to ching's hse cos i was having serious diarrhoea and i vomitted. =( Argh, my face was as pale as a white sheet of paper. I wanted to go to clinic but i forgot today is xmas day so who the hell opens clinic man! lol. Sigh and i have to go to ching's hse to chill. =( I was running a fever, and breaking cold sweat and having tummyaches and wanna to puke. All i ate today was 2 scoops of plain porridge,2 small cups of apple juice and a few mouthful of cereals.=( I hate being sick. And sorry guys for making you all worried .=( Fiona will be back.=D

Sorry ching i had to accopied your bed for so long. And i kept sleeping and breaking cold sweat.=( sorry eh. And i didnt have a chance to eat the food that your parents cooked.=( Sorry fan zhi that you have to go up and dwn just to get me food to eat, taking care of me and so blur that you took my phone with you and you had to come back to return me. =(Sorry i made you worried.

I cant go for training, neither can i go for the ACJC concert, and neither can i go for work and neither can i go for the chalet that the girls booked.=( damn it. oh well, i guess that is fate.=(

merry xmas.

2007-12-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

AN ADVANCE MERRY XMAS TO ALL! ((:
Anyway, i am blogging this cos i am boorrrredddd after BBq-ing. Oh well, not that fun but i am happy to meet my cousins (: They are just fun ppl to mix with. ((:

Sigh, I could still remembered the past 2 years how was my days spent for xmas. In 2005, i was working in TRU and it was damn damn tired and the latest we knocked off was like 3am! Argh..That work is simply exhausting! =X But, at least i earned quite alot?haha. But yeah. I spent my time at work.=( And in 2006, i spent my time working at Body shop! Sigh, i have to put on make up and serving customers. And there are like sooo many of them! =X killer man! Work again! It is kind of tiring but yeah, the pay was GOOD too! (: And this year, i spent my time at home-BBQing. It wasnt that fun compared to going out. I was hoping to go out and chilled out with my friends!But come to think abt it, family is more impt. But, is my family really bonded? I dunno. My paternal side, most of them went overseas. So i cant really celebrate with them. And my maternal side, just the same old few ppl joining us. Even though it is quite small, but i enjoyed talking to my cousins.(:

I wished i have a bigger family and have closer bonding! I want that kind of family and iam really envious of it. =( Sigh. School is starting soon. Commitment, involvment, and hardwork... So many things YET so lil time. I wish god could give me another month to enjoy my holidays. My studies are totally screwed up now. =( I haven been studying=( sigh. I dunno wad to do. And i guess i have been going out lately and mum isnt too happy abt it. =( But i am already a grown up. I hate it when i am controlled. =( Crap.

Anyway, i shall talked abt my work. (: I love my work now. Flexible and easy. I like it. It is an easy job for me.(: And the pay is quite measel lar.(: Oh yeah, i sell uniforms to various schools! (: And the best part- you get to see pretty girls from girls school!(: MGS has many of them! Whoohoo! There are many funny happenings during the job lar. Some ppl drop their money while they are purchasing the uniforms(and i picked it up and return to them okay!haha.), parents are so anxious abt their child enrolling to their primary schools, parents are fussy over the uniforms saying this cant fit, that so exp!(so annoying! ),nice parents who are really nice!, idiotic parents who insisted that they are right and scolded us(like hello! we are humans okay,and dont anyhow scold us for no reason alright!) and more la. The people i met are really good ppl and they are fun to work with. (: Thanks to my friend, i got the job and i introduced it to my girlfriend too!(: cheers!

Currently, i am soooo bored at home when everyone are out celebrating with either their families or their friends and i am here stucked at home.=( Last night, i came back home real late and yeah mum didnt reprimanded me, but from the face she showed me, she is angry. =(

Alright, maybe i should do my assignments.(: ciao ppl and have a wonderful xmas! ((: cheerio! xD

2007-12-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

OKAY. CHAN LIWEN SAYS MY BLOG LACK OF PHOTOS OKAY. HERE IT GOES..LOL.

LOOKED AT THE ABSOLUT LIMITED EDITION VOLKA I HAVE GOT THERE. HOHOHO.

THAT IS THE 1ST TIME I AM SO FEMININE ON A PICTURE LOL. ><

LOOK AT THE DDFS SHOP SELLING THE VOLKAS. O.O

AT LAST I AM THE SUPERMAN! WHOOHOO!

GIRLFRIEND AND ME. (: HOW SWEET!

SMILES EVERYONE. <3

RETARDED ME.

WHAT THE HECK ARE WE DOING? o.O

I WAS TRYING TO BE A LIL BIT MORE GIRLY? HAHA.

okay, enuff of pictures. I hope liwen! You are happy with it. LOL. haha. Oh yeah! I am glad that i have finished my chinese assignment BUT i haven type it on the MI blog yet! DARN IT! =( LOL. And school is reopening LOL. I HATE IT. SO FAST! CANT WE JUST HAVE ANOTHER MONTH OF HOLIDAYS? LOL. HAHAH.. ANYWAY, I AM LOVING MY LIFE NOW WITH MY BUNCH OF PPL AND THAT KUKUNEHNEH(QUACK!) LOL. I have visited Grandpa today, he is much the same i guess. I feel sad, but i know i have to stay strong. But in the end, i still broke down and cry. =( So sorry. But yeah, i will pray for him every now and then.(:
And i managed to study today! whoohoo! About 2 hrs? haha. I am happy enuff! LOL. Cheers. I hope i can study again tml lol. Alright gonna to watch some movies that my mummy's bf borrowed! Ciao! xD

AND THANKS YOKE KEE FOR THE POUCH! I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IT. XD REALLY.. THANK YOU. <3

resume.

2007-12-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

I just resume training today. Oh well, it is not so optimistic. =( Today's training was speed workout under the RAIN! lol. (: And oh well, we did step overs and sprinting. Oh my, i cant do my stepover properly. =X I feel heavy and fat. Furthermore, our body steps have increased to 45seconds! LOL. greatttt man! =X I cant so properly as well. I dunno wad the hell is wrong with me. =( Sigh and after all the step over thingy, we had to sprint 80m for 3 times. Oh no! I am the last for all the 3 times. Great! =X This is like shit. I never felt that way b4. I feel so lousy. Sigh. This is the sign of NOT training for 2 blardy weeks. =X I hope i can train well and i want to be FAST FAST FAST! LIKE BOOM!!!!!! x( Sigh. I think i really have to spend more times on my runs and trainings. I want to be STRONGER and FASTER!
=(

Oh yeah, THANKS CONAN FOR THE GERMANY ALCOHOL.(:
THANKS ATIQAH FOR THE LOLLIPOP AND THE WRISTBAND! ((:
I LOVE THEM ALL.
THANKS!
=D

grandpa.

2007-12-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

Oh my! I just received a news that my grandpa aint doing well. =( Sigh. My auntie,uncle and my cousins are in New York visiting my older cousin=( and my another uncle and his family going to cruise for 5 days! So in Spore, left with my big aunt and me. =(

What if something happened to my grandpa? I really hope nothing happened to him cos i love him so much! HE meant so so so so much to me! =X On the one hand, i wish to let him go, be with god. But, on the other hand, i dont want him to leave us just like that. =X I love him. Sigh, why ppl have to aged and get some stupid illnesses or wadeva shit and die? All crap man! =(( All i want is my grandpa to be healthy and conscious and stay alive with us, spending his old age with all of us.

It has since then we had a family gathering from the paternal side. =( I miss eating at the restaurant in chinatown. I miss those times we have to fight for chicken breast meat with my uncle. I miss those times spending time with my cousins talking nonsense and fighting cos i am a leftie and she is a rightie. =X LOL. I miss eating those yucky food which were supposed to be delicacies. I miss those times when we get together.. etc.. So many things are gone since my grandma left and my grandpa has this sickness. =( I hate it man. Why cant us have a blissful family like everyone else? We dont even have the basis, furthermore anything else. =X ARGH.

I wish to trade my life with grandpa. I wish. =(
because,
FFYONA loves her grandpa dearly.
=( God bless him, please.

2007-12-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

I am irrated.
I am annoyed.
And i am feeling so fucked up now.
Just dont ask me why. =X

xD

2007-12-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

Okay, i shal update my thailand trip(: Oh yeah, photos will be uploaded soon.(:
I didny managed to go to sea games cos its at KORAT and iam in BANGKOK! lol. hahah..From bangkok to korat needs 4hrs of TAXI ride, so my mama and ber bf says... let's go shopping! LOL. And we really shop till we drop! hahah.(:

Nothing much actually, its just eat, shop and sleep. LOL.Really nothing much! haha..Just that the food there is uber NICE! and CHEAP! ESP PRAWNS! whooohoo! They are BIGGGGG and Juicy and NICE!! yummy! ((: And NO MSG INCLUDED SO ITS FRESH AND JUICY AND YUMMY! HAHAA.. Butbutbut! There is a fact that i need to tell you guys-PRAWNS MAKE YOU GO BLUR! hahahaa.. I am serious! haha.. After eating sooo many prawns, i have gone gaga already! lol... haha.Dont believe ask the disney playhouse ppl LOL! (:

I missed spore like HELL when i went Thailand, seriously.=( I miss the people in spore, the food, the environment. (: In thailand, there are many many devastating sights i saw. =X Most ppl there living in poverty, literally. There have to beg for money or food.=( Some of the people even has their legs and hands chopped off and leave at the streets to beg for money.=( It is not one person i saw, its quite a few. =( I supposed it is some organisation who trying to get money in this form.Its brutality, cruel and damn BASTARD! I swear! =X ARGH! My mum and i donated like.. freaking hell lot lar! But we take it as a blessing to others! (: It's a joy to give! (: And, we went to some temple to donate money for those poor ppl who doesnt have money to buy coffin. =X I know as a christian i cant step in,but for the sake of donating, i will(: And, 500 baht is only 16 bucks in spore. So i think its not quite alot for us, but quite alot for them. In fact, its ALOT ALOT! xD

I am happy to be back in spore really. I am feeling so fortunate lol. xD And yeah. i touched an ELEPHANT! SO BIGGG AND AWESOME! REALLY! And the elephant skin's is like sooooo HARD and TOUGH! lol. xD My mum was freaking hell afraid of the elephant! haha... SUPER FUNNY! seriously! (: And the taxis are uber awesome lar! hahah there is something like trishaw thingy, and others like our normal spore taxis!(: But, it's counting by meters! So yeah. Its much much much more cheaper lol.(:

Oh yeah.The thai ppl are super friendly lar! I met 2 nice ppl! hahahaha(: Really darn nice! hohoho. next time if i am going there again, i will buy more clothings from them! (: Oh yeah, jetplane seats literally SUCKS! =((( Dont ever sit that! =X lol. And i almost feel like puking cos of the air pressure that causes my eardrums to be blocked lol. =(( ARGH! But nvm, on the lighter note, I bought MANY MANY VOLKAS! HAHHA...WHOOHOOO.. ABSOLUT DISCO! CHACHACHA!((: hahaha..(: I am loving it! ((: alright, that's abt it (: hahah..

And fan zhi's bday was really successful! (: We celebrate for him and bought him a cake! Seriously, i think he is touched lar!((: YAY! xD

Oh my! I forgot to say, my camera is spolit and most of my thailand photos are GONE! =((( So i left with my cam fone lol. sadddddd..=( Its okay lar. haha..(:photos will be updated soon! xD

i miss spore!

2007-12-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

I am back from THAILAND! ((: hahhaaha.. great great! Everything was alright, but i MISS SINGAPORE LIKE CRAZY LOL. hahhaaha..((: Anyway, i wanna to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAN FAN ZHI! I HOPE YOU DID ENJOY YOUR BDAY ALRIGHT! ((: WILL POST MORE SOON!

TO
XINYI-YEAH, I WANT! WHEN CAN YOU MAKE IT?(:
CROCODILE-YEAH, I AMMMM BACKKKKKK....
GF!-I MISSSSS YOUUUUUU(:
CHRISTINE-YEAH! I WATCHED IT. GREAT SHOW AND I COULDNT FIND YOUR BAG EH I AM SORRY.=(
LIWEN-YOUR ABSOLUT VOLKA DISCO IS WITH ME. LOL. XDXDXD DONT FEEL LIKE GIVING YOU EH!
CROCODILE-ITS OKAY LARRRRRRRR....
SUSU-SOON LAR, I WILL TAGGED DONT WORRY LOL. HAHAHA.. HOW ARE YOU LOL.XD
SARA-I GOT SOMETHING FOR YOU TOO! (: LOVELY PRETTY DRESS! YAY!XD

2007-12-07T20:01:00.000+08:00

I am very deeply blissful with the things around me! ((: I am really very very happy.(: Many good things come to humaira and me lol.(: THANK YOU GOD! THANK YOU SO MUCH! XD

Diploma was a total screwed up, dont talk abt it man! LOL. Hopefully, i can just meet the minimum criteria lol. xD I am so gonna to miss MICHELLE CHING LAR! THAT DUMB DUMB!x(

These few days were great! I am really happy(: Thank you, but i am leaving spore soon.(: Cos i am going to go THAILAND! YAY!XD hopefully, i wont miss spore food lol.haha.. BUT I WILL DEFINITELY MISS THE PEOPLE HERE! XD
take care my dearest people! xD
I will be back to update more! xD

Thank you for everything, crocodile! ((:

2007-12-05T20:03:00.000+08:00

The power of love, is simply amazing.(:
To all my loved ones, you are always dearly loved by Fiona.((: And this will never ever change. ((:

Yesterday was a uber super funny day! I swear man! ((: It all started after humaira and me knocked off from work.(: We found a job which is uber flexible but the pay was rather measel. But, its okay!(:
When we were eating at some halal food court, my mummy smsed me this 'Can you tell Fan zhi stop singing. It's .....disturbing!' LOL. Humaira and me were rather stunned by the sms. It is because,my mummy dont even know who is Fan zhi and she cant type proper english lol. How can she type such good english? I dont meant to be sarcastic, but that totally seriously FREAKED me out! =X I was like oh my god, so paranoid, didnt know wad to do and i smsed my mum back this 'who the HECK are you? How you know my mum's no?' LOL. yupx, and i sent it to her. But she didnt reply me back, so i called her up and my mum said that is my friend who sent this to her and she forward it to me. LOL. Diao. And i found out it was actually JEROME TAN! ARGH!!!! x( whoa pang! That really shocked me! Really REALL SHOCKED ME! YOU guys should have seen my reaction and my face lol. Its uber red lar. =X And I literally SCREAMED AT JEROME FOR BEING SUCH A KUKUNEHNEH! oh my gawd lar! You dont know how i feel at that pt of time.Luckily, it was just a misunderstanding. But, jerome was really laughing like mad. ARGH! Jerome, tml you will know my power! muahahahaha.. Anyway, that was the damn funny part lol.(: And after that we went to play bball. (: Thanks to Jordin, i have learnt one more or two more bball tricks! (: haha.. YAY! Thank you! (:

Oh yeah, and i got a NEW PHONE! YAY!((: Its the nokia music thingy. Its ultra stylo but too bad it is in blue in colour. If it is in red, how great is that man! LOL. And it comes with a free shenhiazer earphones or wadeva you spelt it lol. hahah..((: THANK YOU MUMMY AND MUMMY'S BF! ((: HAHAHAHAHA.. but, it has to deduct from my trip to thailand! argh =( BUt nevertheless, i am happy that i got a new phone to use.(:

Today, met up with fz to eat breakfast with him before he go for training. (: And somehow or at last, we clarify and thanks for giving me assurance.(: And later on in the afternoon, humaira, me and fz supposed to meet and study. In the end, only fz and me went studying. Alright. We didnt study much and he left early to sent his daddy off and so i was left there alone. (: And the scenery there is uber nice (: haha. If only i have a camera to take a nice picture lol.(: At arnd 6 plus, i met up with humaira and joyce and fariz to eat lol and we after that we go home. (:

thank you for giving me assurance. (:

enchanted!

2007-12-03T21:10:00.000+08:00

THE SHOW IS UBER AWESOME AND NICE! XDDDDDD

Today, i went to study SEA history at Bishan libary with crocodile! (: I studied for like 20mins? I got distracted lol.hahaha. Dunno why i dont have the mood to study eh.x( And, i went to search for Pompeii books and designing books. In the end, i found nothing.=X I wanted to find designs for our class t-shirt this year lol. But, i was kind of happy when i saw Van gogh's biography book! ((: haha..I sat down and read. It is really fascinating! ((: I wonder, are all artists suffered depression while they are drawing? hmm.. Most of the books depicted them as such .=(

And i received a rather good piece of new from Mr Lim. (: He called me and ask me whether am i interested in joining the SEA foreign exchange history project.(: It is an online task, and furthermore, we may go to our fellow exchange schools too!(: haha..funfun!(: I have a rough idea on wad i am gonna to do for it already! (: Melvin, you got to be my partner okay! ((: Together, we can score well! hahaha..((:

After that, we went to watch ENCHANTED!(: It is second time he is watching it. Thanks for accompanying me eh.((: haha. The show was really great! Thumbs up man! ((: hahah.. so fairytale like!((: haha.. I wanna to watch it again and again! hahaha..(: And that girl, she is soooo pretty larrrrrrr...((: heehee.

And after that i came home, Himbo asked me to watch movie with him lol. So qiao! But, i got dinner eh. Sorry himbo! =(( Next time okay? Set? hahaha.. I hope to see you in gombak man! haha so long never see you liao! ((:

SINGAPORE MARATHON 2007

2007-12-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

THE FEMALE CHAMPION RUNNER FOR 42.195KM! (:

The teachers and the MI students((:

I am a poser lol. hurhur..xD (i borrowed mr chua's shirt!)

Sheryl, me, yong sheng, xunjie (: at the finishing point.(:

Today was the spore marathon 2007! ((: I have been waiting to to run this race for 2 years! Seriously, i dont really like it. You have to squeeze past so many ppl to finished the race lol. Even it is a 10km run, i tell you man! Its a killer for me! =( I didnt really trained for 10km and furthermore, i was sick for the past 2 days! Argh! The feeling is just so ARGH! Oh well, nvm at least i managed to complete the race at a timing of 1hr? yeah, around there i guess. I saw many CJC track ppl and 1acjc no 1 x-cty girl(: and spore sport's school crossies. LOL. (: haha, i must say that it is a wonderful sight to see them run! They are really F-A-S-T! lol. ((: After the race, i lost cindy and the rest cos i reached the finishing pt 1st. LOl, and i started cam whoring with yongsheng and the rest.((: When i was in the run, there were really great ppl who encourages me to run all the way, cos i was really in pain. Thanks! ((: However, there are some who are freaking inconsiderate. Oh well, not gonna to mention those unhappy stuffs. haha.. Anyway, this race is quite an experience for me. I simply LOVE and ADORE those kenyan and Ethopian runners! ((: They are really my idols man! I was actually hoping for Halie Grembressie to run lol. ((: And i was hoping for 'tree' to appear, but she wasnt there.=( sigh.

Melvin was uber late for his run lar! And yesterday night, he came liwen's hse arnd 11.30. Sheesh! I managed to sleep despite of my flu and cough, and when he came, he talked and talked non stop and cause us cannot sleep earlier lol.haha And melvin! Stop vibrating the bed lol(: I was so luckily i didnt slp beside you cos i have learnt my lesson, now its liwen's time to suffer lol.xD Oh yeah, yesterday afternoon gf, liwen and me went to send Chumpa off(: I was rather happy to see her again! But she will be coming back only on the 28th Dec. Sigh.=( I will miss her dearly! Oh yeah, remember to buy us BAOS and all sorts of frozen tim sums! hahahahah..((: We had popeye's for lunch as well. sheesh! x( I cant even finished my food! This shows how sick i am lar..=X Sigh.

Oh yeah. one more thing that causes a BIG commotion among all of us!!! And that is half of the A2 will merged with half of the remaining of A7 ppl. =) Many emotions are running in me. =( I love my class, but we had to spilt.Its kind of saddening cos, they have been with me for abt 7 mths and now we had to spilt up=(( YOU GUYS WILL BE DEARLY MISSED BY ME!The optimistic side is that my moo family ppl, are coming to join me in the same class next year. I am rather happy abt it. Next year, we have many strong characters ppl in my class, i shall not name who cos you guys know who you are. And i really hope that next year, there will be no conflicts or such cos we are a class.(: See ya next year new classmates! ((: Unfortunately, Liwen and zai are not the same class as us! =( Nvm, still got year 3! hahaa.. ((:

I amma over it. (:

2007-11-30T13:36:00.000+08:00

Thanks for everyone's concern, i am pretty fine now.((: Cheers. But for the time being, Cindy! I am sorry i have to use your phone 1st.(: And thanks Sara, Jacky and Candice for ever so willing to lend me your phones.((: Smiles yeah.

Today is the last day of diploma class! I am happy that its finally over! But, the sad thing is that i cant spent time talking and crapping with my mafia gang(liwen, sara, humaira, joyce and ching!) These ppl made the diploma class interesting and fun! Without them, i dont even wanna to wake up so early, dragging myself off the bed to go to school. You guys rock lar! ((: Even though, we spent time crapping, slping, bitching, eating..blah blah.. All of us managed to pass the test! Whooohoo! ((: haha that is uber miracle. I happened to saw my marks, and i score an A LOL. whohoo! ((: Anyway, thank you guys for everything! ((: Without you guys, life is uber bored! haha.. We have spent at least a month together every single working day together! Next term, when the 4th module starts, we shall remain the same yeah?((: Haha do the same old thing over again.(: And i must really thank to those two lecturers-Mr Yeow and Dr Lee and Jack(the overall incharge) for their patience and kindness towards us! (: really, a BIG THANK YOU! ((: beams!

I am kind of sick today-sore throat, cough and flu. =X It is really bad when you have all these 3 sydromes together! =X I hope i can get well before going to Spore marathon! ((: I am extremely guilty abt this week's track training.=(( I didnt attend one session this week! ARGH! How to improve?=( I wanna to improve!Everytime, i said something like that, i guess ppl will think that Fiona is just NATO(no action,talk only) Sigh. But judging from my current condition, i may not be able to perform well in trainings. And soon enough, when Alfred comes back from SEA games, we will be training with CJC track team. =X I dunno whether is this an advantage for us or wad. But i hope that this will even motivate and pushed us to excel even better! ((: Somehow, i am anticipating wad kind of ppl will i be meeting LOL. (:

At last, i can start my revision to prepare for next year.(: I have yet to touch any of my subjects other than diploma LOL. I think i need to revise real hard for literature! Sigh. Even if i wanna to change sub combination, i think its kind of too late now.=( So, i think i will have to stick to literature and make the best out of it.(: I believe next year's syllabus will be much harder. Time will fly like.. whoohoo! yeah. =X But hopefully, i will get really good PW grp members next year!((: I hope! And next year will definitely be a challenging year for all of us.

Oh yeah, yesterday;s basketball was really great! I enjoyed it very much! And sushi with min min, alina and my aunt were awesome too! Yummy! ((:
My lil cousion is gonna to enrol to SCGS primary next year. Alina and i both share the same sentiments-minmin has the MGS girl's look LOL. hahah... Oh well, SCGS isnt that bad after all.((: She is multi talented LOL. She knows how to play piano, volin, gymnastics, taekwondo, soccer, and soon, she is gonna to take up ballet as her CCA! LOL.*i am speechless! My uncle and auntie so KIASU lol.Sigh, we are really envious of her. Sigh.. Min, you are soo fortunate lol. xD

stupid fiona!

2007-11-28T15:09:00.000+08:00

I AM SOOOO PISSED OFF BY MYSELF! HOW COULD I LOST MY PHONE! AND I SKIPPED TRAINING COS I WAS REALLY SAD TO ATTEND TRAINING AND MUM'S WANNA ME TO GO HOME. SHEESH! X( ALFRED ONCE SAID BEFORE, YOU MUST ENJOY TRAININGS. AND IN THIS STATE, HOW AM I GONNA TO ENJOY IT! ARGH! I AM SORRY THAT I DIDNT ATTEND TRAINING TODAY.=(((

It all happened when we were taken bus 174 to bukit batok and when it reached our destination, i was still blur until liwen called me to alight. Sheesh and cos my school skirt pocket is rather big cos i forgotten to sew back, and yeah, i lost my phone just like that! MUTABAK! MASALA THOSAI! MEE PORK MAN! Once i alighted, i searched for my phone and i realised it was lost! And the bus was like stopping at the traffic light! I wanted to give a chase but my mind was in a blank state. =( I wanted so much to give a chase, in the end, we flagged a cab down to chase the bus. =( God! I wasted 6 bucks to chase the freaking bus cos it is no where out of sight!

The worst thing is that, the bugger who took my phone answered it and was on the line with liwen for 23 secs and the bugger put down. And liwen was being annoying and kept calling my phone over and over again! And this bugger picked up the phone call more than once but he or she didnt say anything! FREAK MAN!HE/SHE MASALA THOSAI AH! Liwen kept asking that bugger to respond and he/she didnt wanna to. In the end, this bugger realised how to use my phone and he/she rejected all the calls and after that switched off my phone! ARGH! I hate it man! I was literally crying, but wad is the use. NO use crying over split milk. =(

I hate it man! Stupid singaporeans! I am starting to dislike singaporeans! This is not the 1st time! The 1st time was my freaking shoe! I lost it just right at my doorstep! ARGH! And ,next was my wallet, i accidentally dropped it. Luckily, it was retrieved. And now my phone! This is the freaking 1st time i lost my phone! ARGH!!!!! I feel so handicapped without a phone with me! AHHHHHH! I hate myself for losing my phone, my own property. Now, my mum is uber fuming mad at me. As if, she never lost before her phone! I really hate it! ARGH! How am i suppose to contact other ppl? All my contacts are in my phone! ARGH! Sheesh. I am so dead now. =((

Sorry, liwen! I caused you to be late for training. Sorry to everyone who tried to contact me but couldnt contact yeah? And lastly, I am sorry to my mum for losing my phone. It was purely an accident. =( Sigh. I really hope she will buy me a new phone! I pray real hard! =(

I guess it is retribution. =(( ARGH! =(

reach.

2007-11-27T21:50:00.000+08:00

Gloria Estefan-REACH

Some dreams live on in time forever
Those dreams, you want with all
Your heart

And I'll do whatever it takes
Follow through with the promise I made
Put it all on the line
What I hoped for at last would be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment
In my life
I'm gonna be stronger
Know that I've tried my
Very best
I'd put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

Some days are meant to be
Remembered
Those days we rise above
The stars

So I'll go the distance
This time
Seeing more the higher
I climb
That the more I believe
All the more that this
Dream will be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch

The sky
From that one moment
In my life
I'm gonna be stronger
Know that I've tried my
Very best
I'd put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment
In my life
I'm gonna be stronger
I'm gonna be so much stronger
Yes I am
I put my spirit to the test

If I could reach, higher
If I could, if I could,
If I could reach
Reach, I'd reach, I'd reach
I'd reach, I'd reach so
Much higher
Be stronger

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This is the song which makes me thinks of track and those times. Thanks to Masayuki who introduced me this song a few years back.(:

I wanna to SPRINT fast. But, i cant. =( I have been very lazy and i have thoughts of giving up on track. =X I dont know why. My mind tells me to RUN! ,my heart tells me NO! slack! =( sheesh. I dont know wad is on my mind lately. March could really be my last race. =( It is the last chance for me to push and excel in track.

It aint easy for me. It aint easy for all of us- the trackers. I have been a tracker for my past 6 years plus of my life. Have i acheived anything in my whole 6 plus years of my life? I am proud to say it is a YES. Without track, I wont be overcoming my asthmatic sickness and my weak body which cant endure 1.6km run in primary school and clocked a timing of 14 mins plus. And now, i am able to overcome my sickness and my timings. My acheivement is not getting as many medals as possible even though, i have quite a no. of school medals and 2 national ones.My acheivment comes from each and everyone of you out there. It is you guys out there who kept giving me encouragements and the support that i needed all these while. The process of winning matters the most.Victory and medals are just bonuses.

I am glad that i have chose the right CCA since secondary school. I am happy to be a tracker and to continue my journey as a tracker. Covering distances like 40km per week in macritchie regardless of sunny or rainy weather, are killers! We are not made of iron or steels, but we gave in our best shots in every trainings. Pushing beyond the limits and reaching nearer to our goals. We are not the best of the best in the cross country arena, but to me, it is the best team ever. We are bonded as one, and believing in each other that we can hit our personal bests. Yes, some of us did. We managed to cliched the top few positions. It aint easy. The process to acheiving such timing is really lots and lots of hardwork. I swear!

We loved every trainings with our coaches, our teammates, our camps, our fighting spirts, our passions and most imptly, beliving in ourselves that we are able to conquer this. Our tears, our sweat and our blood that we shed during those tedious trainings, i will never forget. Track indeed has moulded me into a very different person. If not for track, there wont be Fiona who perserveres in literally everything that she does.

Running is no joke. Recently, one of my friends from track asked me, 'Hey Fiona! Long time no see! How is life? Are you still in track?' My reply was,' Hey Merina! I am fine yeah, and yeah i am still running. She was rather astonished by my reply cos she never expected me to continue this path and she replied me,' Fiona! You are such a hardcore tracker!xD' Yeah, in the past, i guess i am. I was once really hardcore for trainings and knowing very well that i can beat my previous timings over and over again and to set a new personal best. I did managed to break some of my timings and i was extremely exhilerated abt it. (: The feeling of accomplishing something is really AWESOME! xD From that day onwards, i have been training till i got injuried. I was really disheartened whenever i got an injury.I wanna to push and reach even higher, to be like the next Amanda Choo who happened to be Ms Choo's sister, or to be like, the elites-UK shyam, Alfred and Shali. Comparing them to me, they gave in so much hardwork and effort in every of their trainings and runs. I really salute them so much.

One day, i inspire to be like them. Even though, i may not be the best of the best, but i will try my best to do wadeva i can to acheive my target next year. Thank you coaches- Mr Robbin Tan, Mr Tay, Mr Tim Ng, Mr Steven Quek, Mr Alfred Sim and Mr Yeo.Thank you to my dearest teammates from HSS, SRJC, Dunearn, and MI. (: And lastly, to everyone who encourages me and walked with me these few years, i really thank you guys so much((:

Lastly,
Track, my passion will stays on. xD

my little porny! x)

2007-11-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

Everyone is late today !LOL. Except gf and me! ((:
Diploma test was a FLOP! WHOOHOO! BIG BIG FLOP! =X I studied abit and i forgot most of the stuffs! Well done eh, fiona! hahah.. I think i will failed this test badly LOL. Sigh.. Liwen, Ching and me were the fastest to finish the test! LOL. And, we waited for Joyce and Humaira to come down to eat PRATA and masala thosai that we bought early in the morning LOL. ((:

After that, we headed to Aljinied and it was really raining heavily and we cant seemed to get out of her hse LOL and i was having heavy cramps! DARN IT! So in the end, i didnt go for training. =( Sorry.

After that when i got better we played taboo! haha.. It was really fun! ((: And later we eat at town-Chanaya restaurant !! YAY! My favourite halal restaurant LOL. ((: And after that we headed off to ARCADE at plaza singapura! ((: YAY! Datona was really good except, ching, liwen and jordin kept slamming my car! ARGH! LOL. Basketball was good too! haha.. I miss playing it! Time crisis was a bad game! I forgotten how to play lol. haha. But the drum thingy that i played with Joyce, i thrashed her considering the 1st time playing it! haha..((: I am getting pro in games eh! YAY! haha.. I love playing ching's dynasty warriors! LOL.((: Fun fun! ((:

Tml there is a match against NJC-the basketballers! LOL. We are gonna to support them! ((: Jia you the girls team!((: And, conclusion- WE MUST GO TO SCHOOL EARLY AGAIN! lol.HAHAHAHAHAHA.

-kukunehneh crocodile!, pls take care of yourself eh! ((:-

Jelly.Mee Hoon Kway.Soya Bean. Yummy! (:

2007-11-25T17:56:00.000+08:00

I have just watched the hills have eyes 2 and SAW 3. (: Oh well, it isnt scary, its more like a thriller movie. haha.. I can take gory but not those ghost movies lol. =X Anyway, this show was alright lar. (: I love SAW plot! And that show is really. OMG! At least i survived the whole show! whoohoo! xD

This morning, i went to study at bishan library with Fan zhi.(: I didnt know even on the sunday, the library is filled with so many ppl. LOL. In the end, we went to seat at some chairs at some ulu corner. =X I didnt really study much, cos i have no interest in this module-'the principle of marketing'. I wished to drop the diploma, i regretted taking it seriously. =( And so does everyone else. =(( Fan zhi was really studious. (: He actually studied! LOL. haha. Ppl like me, will only influence him NOT to study and slack with me! haha.. ((:

After that, we headed off to eat at some hawker centre. The food is really nice since it has been ages since i have eaten ban mian. (: LOL. Yummy! ((:

Oh yeah! Yesterday, gf and i were studying at bishan library and we cant really study cos we dont have the mood to study LOL. >< And so, we went to the mrt control station thinking where to go to slack. We were thinking of going to Tiong Bahru, but it is freaking far. Gf thought of going to Boon lay! LOL. Even further than Tiong Bahru! And later on she said, 'let's go to bukit batok!' I was like -___-'' We are going there every now and then to go school and even on saturday, she wanna to go to Bukit Batok! LOL. Humaira, you really love school so much LOL. ((:

At arnd 6 plus, Fan Zhi called us. (: Actually, we missed called him 1st. LOL.(: And so, he returned the call. Humaira asked him come dwn to hang out and chill with us since he lived at Bishan LOL.. And she asked him bring snacks for us too while we were waiting for him at the Bishan interchange. (: He was super funny! He said, while he was chasing the bus or running across the road, his sandal's sole fell off. And it is left on the roadside LOL. And, he said it will cause a bump on the road for the vechicles that are using the road.LOL. He is uber funny lar! Anyway, THANKS FOR BRING SNACKS FOR US, CROCODILE! ((: We talked alot of craps before heading home LOL. ((:

I like the BIG KUKUNEHNEH CROCODILE! ((:

Sigh, tml diploma test again! =( ARGH! When can we end this torture. =X And maybe tml there is training.. I hope i can be stronger and faster! ((: I want to FLY! ((: I hope my final race in March will prove how much i have learnt and trained. (: I wanna to be FASTTTTTTTT ((: cheers!

watch this!

2007-11-24T00:09:00.000+08:00

very touching and it made me cried. =X

1 Corinthians 13-"Love Chapter")
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I LOVE AH GONG! ((:

2007-11-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

ME, DEAREST GRANDMA, ALINA(MY COUSION),MY DEAREST GRANDPA. <3

THIS IS FIONA. (: CUTE HUH.><

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH GONG! <3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
AND
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EE CHEONG!

Today's test was WHOOOHOOO! =X Impromptu like crazy! haha. I wrote like 7 pages of CRAP lol. xD Anyway, i am happy that TEST is FINALLY OVER! (for the 2nd module. -_-'')

Morning, we skipped diploma lesson cos we dont feel like going LOL. So, at arnd 1am I sms humaira and told her tml not going to diploma lesson. And sorry to Joyce and Ching cos i completely forgot to sms you guys! =( I am really sorry, hope the bubbleteas are enuff to compensate! =.= Humaira was supposed to meet fan zhi and me for breakfast. In the end, she was too punctured to go out. -.- So, left Fan zhi and me to eat at amk LOL. hahaha.. Yeah and i went Kovan with him to send him off to his bowling centre. LOL. I am a saint! Aint i? LOL. hahha.. Aiya, cos i still got so much time left to spare, but so last min humaira asked me to meet her at 11.30 and so from Kovan i rushed back home to retrieve my stuffs and headed off the control station lol. xD

After the diploma, I asked Humaira to accompany me to visit my grandpa in the home. It has been so long since i visited him. I am not a filial grandchild.=( When I 1st saw him, I couldnt find him ,but in fact he was sitting directly in front of me and i didnt notice that was HIM! He changed so much until i couldnt recognise him at all! =X I wanted to cry cos seeing him in such a state really pains me so much. As a grandchild, i couldnt do anything to help him relieve his agony or pain. I could only see him in pain and agony. =(( I wanted to feed him, but i wasnt allowed to. OH YEAH! The food is really CMI! It was all in liquid form! How to eat! ARGH! But then again, he cant eat solid food and have to eat those yucky food.=X In fact, i was saluting him cos he could actually swallowed the food. The nurse said that he never failed to finished up his food, they said that he is a good boy! ((: YAY! I was really relieved to hear that.=)) I am sure grandma and papa will be glad that you are still surviving well in this planet earth. Even though, grandpa has lived in the home for 3 years ++ ,he still managed to eat and slp well for most of night. I am really happy that he can moved his limbs and his body but he still couldnt walked. =( Nvm, i hope that one day he will be able to stand up! (: He is having alzemier (idunno how to spell that word) but yeah, he couldnt really recognise me. He could only close his mouth, open his mouth, drooled and kept scratching his head every now and then. I really pity him so much. =(( He is 92 years old this year and i hope that he could live to a 100 odd years old to see me getting my degree, my 1st job, getting married and giving birth and so much more. I want him to live as old as possible and set the world record for the oldest person living in this world! LOL. Anyway, seeing him such a state, i could stop thinking the mean things i have done to him. I am really very sorry and regretful. I wanna to support him but i cant. =( ARGH!

Grandpa, no matter how you become, how you have changed, how much you cant understand wad i am saying, I still LOVE YOU! Cos, you are my grandpa and i will always love you and remember you in my heart! YOU ARE THE GREATEST GREATEST GRANDPA WHO NEVER FAILS TO
ENTERTAIN ME WITH ALL YOUR JOKES,
HOLD MY HANDS WHEN CROSSING THE ROAD WHEN I WAS YOUNG,
CARRIED ME ON YOUR LAP AND ROCK ME LIKE A LIL CHILD,
SHARE YOUR FOOD WITH ME,
SHOWERED ME WITH ALL THE LOVE THAT YOU HAVE,
GIVING ME THE BEST THINGS IN LIFE,
GIVING ME A SHELTER TO LIVE WHEN NO ONE WANTS ME,
GIVING ME ENDLESS HAPPINESS AND JOY,
TRYING TO UNDERSTAND MY PLIGHT,
PROTECT ME FROM GETTING WHACKING BY GRANDMA...
ALL THESE SMALL LIL THINGS,
I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBERED.
COS,
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH,GRANDPA! NOTHING COULD STOP ME FROM LOVING SUCH A WONDERFUL GRANDPA. YOU ARE THE GREATEST THAT I EVER HAD. DONT EVER LEAVE ME. ((: TO ME, YOU ARE ALWAYS HANDSOME INSIDE AND OUTSIDE. ((:

I am sorry to humaira, i made her took cab with me cos we were late to meet the rest at bishan. =( Sorry, gf!
Sorry to Joyce, cos we said 6 and we came like 6.15. So sorry.
Sorry to Fan zhi, i made him missed called me 15 times in a row. =( Sorry to waste your battery cos i set my phone to silent mode when i visited my grandpa. =(
Sorry to Jerome, for being late and wasnt able to make it on time. =(
And lastly, sorry to Melinda, cos i kept changing time and still, i am late to meet you.
VERY SORRY PPL! =(
And THANK YOU PPL FOR BEING SO UNDERSTANDING! xD

After that, we went to play ball for a few mins and headed off to Long John to eat and chat. ((: We really crapped so much and yeah, Fan zhi's sister (sher, fan zhi corrected me, LOL) came down to eat as well. (: She is really uber pretty! hahaha.. LOL. Sorry! I kept looking at her LOL. Oops. Stupid Jerome, one day i will get you LOL. You wait, stoopid BAN- NEH-NEH! haha.. ((:

Anyway, today is really a GREAT DAY. (: I thank god for giving me this chance to visit my grandpa and mr tan who is my grandpa's close friend and always taking care of him even though he is sitting in a wheelchair. (: THANK YOU!

2007-11-22T21:19:00.000+08:00

Look at my DIRTY SHIRT! It was due to yesterday's training in such a wet weather. YUK! =X

Today was the SC interview. The whole of last night, i was wondering how to make an excuse how to reject SC lol. I have come out of many ways and in the end, i didnt used any of them. LOL. Waste my blardy time to think! hahah..xD

Oh yeah, my interview was 9am in F01 and the waiting room was F01. So, i went early with my gf to school.(: And i was quite well prepared to enter the room. But, when i entered the waiting room,
Calvin asked me ,'So, Fiona! Are you interested to become a SC leader?'
My reply was a firm NO!
He got kinda of shocked i guess. And everyone was like giving me that ''HUH" expression! LOL. But later, i walked to a seat next to melinda, Calvin asked again.
'Why you dont wanna to be in SC? How abt NEC(previously called the faculty council) ?Are you interested?'
My reply was again NO! haha.. I wasnt interested in any of them. I just wanna to be like the norm. (: I have no passion abt SC seriously. Ever since the start of PAE, some ppl asked me to be SC leader, maybe cos i was kind of entu during PAE period and i almost clinched the Ms De Novo title LOL. =X hahaha..
I was wondering maybe i am a late bloomer, cos in secondary school and primary school i wasnt selected to become any prefect. At most, my positions in sec school are just student leader in choir. Haha, not many know. And captain for cross country. Well, i think it is quite alot for me. Cos of all the CCAs and stuffs like that, i retained. =X This time round, i know wad i should really focus on, studies! I dont wanna to let the history repeats itself again.
I am sorry Jenna, and the rest. I hope you guys understand. And I really have no passion in SC and sorry to the teacher who nominated me. And i guess i am one of the 1st few to quit SC interview just like that! lol. I was quite proud of myself cos this is wad i really wanted and i am happy currently((: Leave the leadership stuffs to those who think that they can make it and also to those who are really passionate abt SC. (: I shall just sit back and relax and enjoy the world;enjoy my trainings in gombak! (:

Well, congrats to Humaira and Joyce who really think they did really well for the interview! ((: I am really very proud of them! ((: I hope that they will get into SC and change the school to a better place for everyone! ((: I think they have the substance! whoohoo! xD

As for this dear friend of mine, I know starting of the interview and the SLE camp were kind of screwed up. Mistaken identities. I believe that you did your best even though you think you kind of screwed up the interview. Dont be so sad abt it. I know that you have high hopes and i sincerely hope that you can be SC, that is your biggest wish i guess. I never knew your passion for SC was so strong till now. Compared to me, i am far off from you. I wasnt passionate abt SC or anything. But, you! You willingly to take up duties and also to help out the SC as and when you can. I admire you in some ways. Dear friend, i hope you do embrace yourself and believe in god that he will answer your prayers. ((: Nevertheless, dont be too disappointed abt today. Wad is over is over.haha.. Well, i just have some advices to tell you.

You dont have to be someone great to accomplish something in your life.
Even a normal person can do something great or achieve something that is beyond your imagination.
Being someone great only can prove that you wanna respect from others or to prove that you are more capable.
You dont have to do that to gain respect.
In life, a lil help that you give others,
others will remember wad you have done for them.
You dont have to be someone great to inspire others.
You are who you are.
Your light will automatically liberated others.
I am sure one day you will understand wad i mean.
(:
take care, my friend.
And lastly, congrats to those who got selected for the interview! Dont worry, everything will be fine(: And, tml is diploma test.HOHOHO! I shall just impromptu again! hahaha.xD well, our clique is well known for that! LOL. ><

wet and dirty! ( sounds wrong eh! )

2007-11-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

Today's training is really TOUGH! TOUGH TOUGH!!!!! =X Liwen and i almost Cannot make it! =X For warm-up, we did 20 steps over. That was quite alright cos we quite used to it. ((: But jia min and grace have to work on their techniques better! ((:

After that, liwen and mine training were different from yi xun, grace and jia min. Maybe cos they are crossies, and we have converted to sprinting. LOL. ((: And our training is 6sets of 100m stepovers and when we reached the finishing line, we had to do either 5 squat jumps or 15 push ups. And stride back to the starting line. O.o , then we had to do 20 sit ups for. In total, we have to stepover 100m and do 5 squat jumps, and stride back, do 20 sit ups then stepover again,then stride back to 100m and rest, and go again! AHHH!!! This is really KILLER! When we were at our 2nd set, liwen and i almost 'die'. LOL. The crossies did on the wood chips.All they have to do is to run fast for 400m (for girls, below 1.50.For guys, it's below 1.30)And after that the next round, they can choose to walk or slow jog! LOL. They just need to do 4 sets! And ours? So much of endurance LOL. Anyway, i like it! No pain ,no gain! ((: Its like our training is = to 3 times rugby trainings? haha.This is wad we assume LOL. I am not so sure though. And we trained under the drizzling weather. My shirt and liwen's shirt and FBTs got SOAK REAL WET AND DIRTY! Cos the place where we did sit ups, was really VERY DIRTY! =X We were so....hahah.. And some of the track bits came off and the dye too! =X And my FBT was REALLY VERY VERY WET! When i got up from doing push ups, my FBT is dripping with water! Its like having menses! OH MY TIAN! =.= Stoopid weather! And alfred discounted us! So we only have to do 5 sets! It may seems very lil, but in fact, IT IS ALOT! cos in total we had to do 10 times. ARGH! Try doing it man! You will really literally DIE! O.o I swear man! Luckily, we completed training! And we we were really happy abt it. But , on a sad perspective, we may have aches all over LOL. =.= sad huh! haha.. And alfred said that we must ENJOY the training and yeah i did. I did a peace out sign and smile like a retarded cos i am really very drained! THANKS TO LIWEN FOR ACC ME AND SHE ENCOURAGES ME TO GO FURTHER! ((: thank you!

Now my mind is only Alfred training stuffs, i keep having the voice inside me. Just like Alfred was telling us in the training, SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! YOUR ARMS, FIONA! ARMSSSSS!! FASTER HIGHER! LOL.

And oh yeah, i got shortlisted for the student's council thingy. I dunno how on earth did i get it. I wanna to know how and why! Melinda told me that during the SLE camp the list has my name, address and my ugly picture, but with melinda's hp no. O.o so weird! And now the shortlisted thingy, its the same thing again! And they said they will get back to Melinda LOL. And guess wad? I GOT shortlisted as well! OH MY! I screamed superb loud in the GYM! sigh! And everyone (those spore runners and SAA athletics)was like SC eh! whoohoo! Diao lol. Sigh, i just wanna to know why it happens to me. I am not really rejoicing but the worst thing is that i am the 1st one to go for interview. =( Hope i did really 'well' eh. (: hahaha.. I love TRACK! and that is for sure! ((: WEE!

Yesterday, fz showed me a youtube video-Britain's got talent. And this lil girl 6 years old-Carrie something was really AWESOME! She sang like an adult and she is really pretty and adorable!! haha.. She really stunned me! ((: She sang the song-over the rainbow i think that is the title of the song. She said that she sang cos of her grandma who passed away due to breast cancer. =X sad. And yeah, she loves her grandma and during her funeral, she sang this for her and on the stage she could feel her grandma watching her! (: How sweet is that. So young yet she knows the meaning of life .((:

After training, i met up with gf and we eat dinner b4 sitting under the mrt thingy to have heart to heart talk. To her, i can poured out everything! haha and she said that if i am a guy, she will fall for me, rightaway! hahaha..LOL. so cute lar! We really talked abt things that some ppl wont be able to feel or understand. But still, i am really happy that i shared my views and thoughts with her! We should do that more often, gf! ((: haha..loves. Seriously, not many knows abt my past. (: haha and the darkest secret of mine. She does. (: haha.. She rocks lar, simply. (:

argh, tml dip again! I cant seemed to understand wad the lecturer was talking abt. Sigh. I guess i have to read up MORE! LOL. =.= And i cant wait for 2 dec the marathon run! I am losing my stamina, pfft! I must TRAIN !argh. =X

One last thing! I really hope that our spore athletics will do well for their SEA games! ((: Lay chee, shali, alfred, uk shyam, and many more....haha all the SAA athletics! All the best! and i promise you guys! WE are here in spore rooting for you guys! ((: hahaha..
p.s the photo of our dirty shirts will be posted soon, cos that chan lily haven come home YET! argh! faster lei, lily! i want the photos! ((:

bubblegum!

2007-11-20T19:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a great day! ((: We had the 1st lesson of diploma on marketing and as per usual i fell asleep or rather stoning in lecture and as per usual, we are late! haha..The whole of the diploma ppl knows us well, i guess! hahahaha.. Well, we cant be bothered as long as we do well for exams! It doesnt mean that we go late for lessons or didnt pay attention ,we cant do well. In fact, the recent test, all of us -Liwen, Joyce, Humaira, Ching passed!!! ((: How cool is that! Hohohoho.

After that we headed off to training! hahah..We had shitzu! I just forgot the name of it ! Ah! I think its called the responsive training! ((: We had to sit in a certain position ON THE FREAKING WET TRACK THAT MAKES OUR FBTS SOAKED WET! ARGH! hahaha. Yeah, and Alfred gives the command for us to sprint. For eg, he said some body parts like the hands and legs, we had to get up and sprint. If he said something that is not related to body parts, we have to sit still! And there was once, he said, 'monolulululululu' which Atiqah, Liwen and me have no idea wad the hell is that and we started laughing like crazy! hahahaha..((:Afterall, it was really fun! I like his trainings! FUN and MORE FUN! ((: And after that we had to do 4 sets of hamstring drop and leg curl. LOl. I almost die there, due to shin injury! AH! I have so many stoopid injuries lol. Irrating! =( I want to run FAST! SPRINT FAAST! like ZOOOOOMMMM..((:

And we were freaking late, so we ran to the mrt platform to find Humaira and Joyce.((: Seriously, at that pt of time i was reallyt burnt out. LOL. And the rest you guys can read fan zhi's blog! LOL. Lazy to repeat everything! hahaha..((:

At arnd 10 plus we headed home and i accompany ching to wait for her mum to fetch her and so we talked under a void deck! (: And there was this cat just charged at us! OH MY SHEESH! =X I was kinda of freaked out cos i was really super dead tired and this just startled me! LOL. And we sat there for abt 45 mins? And i MISS THE SHOW-HEROES! AHHHHHHH!!!!!! Well, its okay, i am gonna to HUNT for the show to watch it! ((: hahaha.. And i reached home, everyone started spamming me online LOL. hahahah..

Oh yeah, I MISS crocodile! hahahaha.. xD

Today, i called the stoopid CHAN LILY! AND SHE DIDNT RESPOND TO MY CALL! DODO HER! and as per normal, we went to school LATE again! hahaha This time sara was with us! hahah..Lecture was super boring, but had to maintain LOL. And Sara was uber funny! haha.. She just impromptu the speech on some marketing strategies.And Joyce wrote on the paper blardy hell, and she just said the word 'BLARDY HELL' lol. So funny! hahaha.. We were really laughing like crazy! LOL. And that HK guy, Jack is really nice! He always defend for us! ((: SO next time, we shall treat him eat breakfast! ((:

After that, we headed off to island creamery with AMIRAH!!((: So longggg never see her already! ((: I am soo happy! And the ice cream there is really GOOD! YUMMY! xD I must go there again to EAT!!!! ((: And we saw Mr SIR picture ,LEONG's PICTURE on the wall of the ice cream shop! SO qiao LOL. ((:

And so QIAO again, we saw the lecturer cos he lives arnd there, and he was heading to henderson road and we were going to town! (: And we ate at chanaya restaurant or wadeva you called it! We always called it the chanya restaurant cos we cant prounounce properly LOL. hahaha.. The food there is REALLY NICE AND ITS HALAL! ((: We have been there quite a few times and i still love it! The uncle or auntie always give us FREE FOOD! yummy! ((: thank you! ((: And we talked and chat for very very long! hahahaha..And we said many scary stuffs LOL. Sigh, i wonder i can slp tonight anot, since i had insonmia AGAIN last night. Pfft. =(

Anyway, I love yesterday cos i am the champs for animal games! muahahahaha! ANT rawks! ((: The rest, aiya,, CMI :LOL.hahahah.. Even the worm also died-__-'' But Cindy and Fan zhi and michelle learnt fast! hahaha.They are really good at it considering the 1st time playing! BUT the tempo game, they really CMI! lol. hahah Fun fun! Next time we shall play again! ((:

((:

2007-11-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

Jordin's condo. (:
so many nice food! (: yummy man! (:

We wanted to go see Jordin play match! But, unfortunately, it was heavy downpour and so we went to chomp chomp and eat! We spent like 43$. Alright lar! We (Cindy, liwen, joyce and jordin and me) ate kangkong, you tiao, prawn mee, carrot cake, satay! hahahaha.. and sugar cane! whoohooo. And nw i am bloated! =( And i am off to play hexics wih Joyce! ciao! hahaha.. and yesterday i just know how to play sudoku LOL. hahahaha...

T-I-R-E-D! =(

2007-11-17T01:02:00.000+08:00

I am currently tonning at my friend's hse. (: Oh well, they are watching some ghost show and i dozed off and now, i am blogging leaving them to watch the horror show. LOL. (:

Today diploma lesson was rather useful and fruitful and happy COS i am finally, done with the module. BUT, next week there is a new module. Seriously, diploma is a waste of time and energy and i really regretted taking it. It took away my training times, and screwed up my mondays- fridays. LOL. Sigh. And this is only the 2nd module. =( And the 4th module, it is on EVERY BLARDY SATURDAY! Oh gawd! How to study like that!!!! =X I feel so sian, forcing myself out of bed and to go school for that few hours, and after that go for trainings. I am not superwoman man! I am not made of steel. It is so tiring and everyday, my life is like this-
diploma, trainings, dinner. diploma, bball, dinner. diploma, training, dinner. Oh my! I am like so dead lar. -__-'' It still have to go on for like a few more weeks. DANG! -____-''' Life like that, mind as well dont have hoildays right! =( Okay, i am just whining here. LOL.

After that, went for training. Oh well, training wasnt that fruitful. =( I was having shin prob for the 1st time. At last! I feel how liwen feels. =D Even though, the training was rather last min resuming cos Atiqah INITALLY was MIA, so we went to used netball to play bball lol. I wanna to recover my shin injury fast!!!!((: And my ABC is still like SHIT! -___-'' I have no idea why. LOL. I think i must really practice my ABC before, Jerome comes back and also, before Fan Zhi wins me! LOL. (:

And now, i am in Iris's house. -___-'' Wanted to go to the prata house to eat prata, but lazy and no money to go and eat. LOL. And i am still so hungry. -__-'' I suspected that i have a tapeworm in my stomach! hahah.. Whatever i ate, an hr or so later, i will began to feel hungry again! O.o LOL. Sigh. Oh yeah, and Disturbia was alright. It was a thriller movie and the girls in the house were SCREAMING like mad! -___-'' ( i wasnt screaming okay! haha..) I dont find it scary or wadsoeva. Its just thriller! LOL. But when it comes to horror movies or ghost movies, THAT really freaks me out. TOTALLY! =X It turned me off so much! LOL.

Sigh, now i am tired but i cant slp. Still having insonmia.I have no idea why. Later i become a dead zombie and do around hunting for blood! LOL. >< haha.. Or maybe talking to random and spastic ppl on msn could probably perked myself up alil LOL. ((:

p.s. I FORGOT TO BLOG ABT ATIQAH !oops. =X haha..

:-/

2007-11-15T21:39:00.001+08:00

DARN! I HAVE TO REWRITE THIS WHOLE ENTRY AGAIN COS I ACCIDENTALLY PRESSED SOME BUTTONS AND THE WHOLE THING WENT *POOF!!!! ARGH! #%@#$&

Early in the morning, Humaira and Joyce came to my hse to cook SOBA and TAKO for our beloved friends! And they came to my hse arnd 7.15 LOL. haha.. And in the end, only bert, sara, nic, ching turned up! And we left like sooo much SOBA ! The SOBA is really heavy cos yesterday night i cooked like ONE KG of SOBA! And i thought that i can bribed LIWEN to come to eat! And i was wrong! BASKET! LOL. And in the end, Jordin bring back home! Thanks eh! ((: Oh yeah(happy sixith month with JOYCE! ) And liwen, its okay la! I know you cant wake up so early cos of your alarm also! Its alright, you are FORGIVEN !((:

And we skipped diploma cos we were darn tired! And we escaped from the lecturer lol. Basket the worse thing is that the HK guy who marked our attendance called me!-__-'' He said,
eh, HOW WAS THE PICNIC?' lol. haha I was like ehhhh, fine LOL. And he asked me why i didnt go to diploma, i said we were tired lol. In fact, we really are woreout! Joyce and i almost missed the stop to alight in Bukit Batok la! Thanks, Humaira for calling us to wake up! ((:

After that, we headed dwn to Yishun cos i have the urge to cut hair! ((: LOL. Jordin came and THANKS for finishing the food!!((: Yeah and i was late for training for a few mins LOL.

TRACK TEST!!! WELL, LIWEN AND I CALLED IT THE TRACK NAPFA TEST COS IT IS EXACTLY LIKE NAPFA TEST, 6 PHASES TO GO THROUGH. (: The best thing is that we have 3 tries!

STANDING BROAD JUMP! oh, haha, i jumped the furthest among the girls-198cm! Whoohoo! I could almost hit 200cm again LOL. But, yeah 198 considered not bad! (: And Atiqah was really funny! Alfred kept asking that you swing so much ,you think you doing 'ah-gogo' ah! hahaha.. And she really looked like a silver surfer and she tucked in her shirt in her tights made her looked like some KUKU also! hahaha.. Liwen was laughing so hard that she lies on the track and laughed non stop LOL.

TRIPLE JUMP! gawd! This is the most CMI(cannot make it ) jumps. I tried this when i was in sec 1 and i have seen on tv and in live ppl jumping this, but it has been so long since i tried this. And i think it was really a total failure even though, i tried my best to bound.

FORWARD SHOT PUT! This was similar to our short dist trainings. We used medicine balls to train and this time we used the actual shot put ball to throw on the field. And the furthest i did was only 800cm ++ LOL. And liwen did like 900cm ++ LOL. haha. Alright la, this isnt that bad afterall! (:

BACK SHOT PUT! This was just a back throw and all my throws were sucky. I tried to throw far and basket! I didnt do well. Sigh. And i am the one who is measuring the distance with Conan and also, i was picking all the balls for them LOL. haha. I was afraid that the ball might hit my head! LOL. SO dangerous! -__-''

30M SPRINT! We had to do this in as if we were using some imaginary starter's block. We have to pushed off and explode in the run! Sheesh, i can feel my body mass! SO HEAVYYY!!! WHO IS CARE TO JOIN ME FOR RUNNING NEXT TIME? ((: LOL. Yeah, seriously, i think i sprint uber wols. =( AND THIS IS NOT THE FINAL YET! STOOPID ATIQAH ASKED ALFRED WHETHER LIWEN AND I NEED TO RUN FOR 400M AND HE SAID YES! lol. Cos, 400m is so called our specialised event LOL. Basket Atiqah i am so gonna to get you! LOL.

400M run. I came back at a timing of 89 seconds. Uber slow and i thought i could get like 70 seconds and below LOL. Sigh.. And there was this lil primary school kid was challenging me in my last 200m part. I knew that i cant pushed further and he was using exactly the same speed as me! -__- wad the! I wanted to cut into the 1st lane and he blocked me, BASKET! In the end, yeah. I did an average timing cos we didnt run often but we did alot of Gym workouts LOL. We were supposed to do 2 sets of this, but after the 1st set, we cant take it anymore and raised our white flag and admitting that we cant take it. LOL.

After the test, we had to do 200 abs. Sheesh! haha.. Atiqah was really funny! I swear! She did the side crutch and she insisted that it is the right way, but she cant do well. In fact, she was merely doing like neck training LOL. Cos she is really like bobbing her way through out the workout! LOL. Haha.. We even thought that the neck was the ABS LOL. hahahaaha.. She is really SPASTIC MAN! LOL.

Anyway, today was really lethagic. I was having insonmia last night. I cant slp and now, i am like a dead zombie LOL. Sigh. I wonder tml's dip lesson will i fall alp. LOL. -___-'' Anyway, tml is the last lesson BUT next week is a NEW MODULE! BASKET! My entire holidays are BURNT OUT! =( Ahhhhhh!!!! =X

p.s. pictures of my new hair style will be uploaded soon cos the pictures are with Joyce. LOL. (:

(:

2007-11-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys for being such an idiot today. I dont mean it. I am really sorry. I hate this habit of mine. I tried to change for the better, but i dunno why it cant.I will try even harder! (: Fiona is a KUKUNEHNEH! ARGH! -__-''

Yesterday, we played basketball with those sec 4, i supposed they are from compassvile ( i dunno how to spelt LOL) Initally, we won them but then after that we played with the whole guys team we lost even though we had 2 guys with us-jordin and nicholas. LOL. Nvm la, gained exprience(: And yesterday, I didnt completed my ABC! -__-'' I think its cos i wore ACJC shirt lol that's why cannot score! AHH! I think i will lost to Fan Zhi already! =( Nvm, i will train harder! FZ! YOU WAIT! haha.. BUBBLE TEA! ((: After that, we bumped onto Atiqah in sengkang KFC lol. haha..((: And in the evening, i headed off with my girlfriend to her park to sit and talk. (: Yeah, we have talked abt something emotional and in depth. And she cried, and so do i. I am sorry alright. But i am glad that you have realised that and it is not too late! ((: I hope that she will knows it too! Take care, gf! (((:

Today,Humaira, Joyce, me, jordin, and liwen went late for diploma class. That was deliberate. LOL. And we stepped into the class for like 10 to 15 mins, we have a short break. The break was supposed to end at 11 plus but in the end, we slacked until the class end LOL.. haha. We are damn pro la! ((: Anyway, we feel rather guilty for not turning up so tml, we shall give something nice to the lecturer and be there on time! ((: We are good souls! ((: After that, Joyce, Ching and me went to Kovan CC to see our own MI team vs with Bowen.We lost by 7 pts i think? not sure.But its okay! Still have other matches so no worries yeah! all the way! MI!((: Fan zhi came down to support Jordin too! haha cos Joyce and i forced him to come dwn after his bowling training which is so near to the CC lol. hahahaha.And we didnt know that his bus came and he made a detour just to see our dear friend, Jordin played his match! haha.. Well, i was seeing the skills rather than the guys. LOL. haha. And yeah, THANK YOU VERY MUCH FAN ZHI for coming dwn to support okay even though you have to bring the 13 pounds bowling ball and watch Jordin play! haha.. (sarute ah!)LOL. And JORDIN! WELL DONE! ((: Keep up the good work! ((: Seriously, i have the urge to joined back external team to play basketball! LOL. But, i think it will take up most of my time, so i have to seriously consider. (: After that, we headed off to PS to play ARCADE!!! ((: whohoo! I love the dunk machine, the datona, etc..hahahaha.. YEAH! And the best thing is that, I SAW GUITARS! PRETTY GUITARS AND DRUMS in yamaha even though i dont really like yamaha brand lol. hahaha..

Tml will be the track fitness test. I heard that it will be kind of tough. I am worried that i cant do well. Sigh. I will pray for the best and yeah, all the best to LIWEN, ATIQAH and ME! ((: We can do it yeah! ((:

p.s. FZ, if you are reading this, lemme tell you that JOYCE AND I will win you in spasdom! hahaha. Even though, you used your TRUMP card(PM) also no use lol. hahahahaha..We will see abt that. And, as for 2 pointer shots, if you didnt score in 1, you will have to treat Joyce and me BUBBLE TEA!1 ball=1bubble tea! so 10 balls-20 bubble teas!(including joyce's!) ((: haha.. Also, as for ABC, we will see abt that! ((: Deal or no deal? Aiya, its a deal la! LOL. (self-proclaim!xD)

2007-11-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

I am uber dropped dead tired now. =X I have been going out every single day.=( LOL.
I am happy that iris and kee are happy now. Seriously, Iris i hope that you can enter ACJC! ((:
Test wasnt opened book! Darn it! =( In the end, i wrote loads of rubbish in the test lol. I wrote abt 7 pages with TOTALLY ILLEGIBLE handwriting! O.o haha. Who the hell cares ! ((:

-sometimes, i feel solitary.I cant denied that feeling.

CAROLA.

2007-11-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

Service was really good! Rev ULK EKMAN and a famous swedish pop singer- CAROLA were in CHC today! ((: Oh yeah, and Jack Neo and his wife too! The service is really powerful! And yeah, we are 'more than conquerors!' We had service for like 3 hrs or so cos there is a mini concert by CAROLA! Oh my gawd! HER singing is really AWESOME!((: Her vocals is so POWERFUL! And she is uber b-e-a-u-tiful even though she is 41 this year! Sheesh! We are proud to have her here in CHC!
Well, i backslided and i returned.((: Somehow, CHC is not the church that i wanna to stay in. I just dunno why. Maybe i need more time to adapt. Just like wad Yoke Kuan says, when you take a step towards god, he will give you a hundred folds in return. ((: I simply agree with that but, i still haven got the courage to actually face him yet. Give me a lil bit more time. ((: Thank you for today, the sermon is really WONDERFUL! And i am glad that Champa came with me! Thank you and i hope you did enjoy the powerful sermon too! xD

After that, we went to meet up with Melvin and Humaira to study math! Sheesh! I was really too exhausted to study and so, i went to take a 20 mins nap and after that we went to design our own MOO shirt! Seriously, i think it is NICE okay! hahhaa.. Tml i am gonna to show joyce and the rest! whoohoo! haha..

Tml there is the freaking diploma course which i really dont wanna to attend.Moreover, there is a freaking test even though it is open book lol. The duration is -ONE HOUR! sheesh man! I am sooo gonna to slp in the lecture AGAIN! It is like an everyday thing lol. =X After that we will have TRAINING! LOL. DIE! This thursday i am so gonna to be dead. I am somehow afraid that i cant make it. But i will try! ((:

Life like this is great everyday! I am spending my time to the fullest! ((: And yeah, lastly i LOVE MY GIRL! hahahaha.. LOl.
go figure out WHO is SHE lol. xD

2007-11-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

pretty sunset in singapore! (:

Today, humaira and me went to liwen's house. Well, i dyed my hair but cant really see much of a difference i guess.My black hair pigment is just too strong LOL. (: Anyway, i hope tml will turn out fine. (: Oh yeah, we have planned the 07A3 (pae) class outing so guys, pls go to the A3 blog for more details yeah?(: I hope that you guys could give us the dates that you are free so that we can go out as a class.(:

When we were on the way home, humaira and me were discussing about some philosophical stuffs. LOL. And, we thought if next year's valentine's day will be fun. Simply because, most of the people around us are attached and left with the both of us so we thought that we could be pure lesbians and give each other roses during v day.(: Humaira said that it would be bored cos its like everyone is attached and the only time you feel most lonely is when you have no one to celebrate with you. Oh well, it's kind of true but haha.. who knows about next year? Since, it is a long way to go. Humaira probably will have a guy that she fancies and can celebrate with.(:

Come to think about it,Humaira and i strongly believe that we have independent streak in us, it is just that sometimes, we longed to be with someone. Someone of a special significance. (: But, its really when the time comes, it comes naturally without a doubt. So, now we are kind of happy that we are single. No commitment to make and sacrifices. Single has single's advantage, and attached has it's own. Well, there is also another saying. That is when you can love someone for who he or she is, but committing to this person is another. I truly agree with this and perhaps, for some of us, the time hasnt come.

Sometimes, i feel that human nature is too shallow. I have met different kind of people through various woks of lives. I personally feel that the best people to mixed with is the people in school, perhaps some might agree, some might not. They are the purest that you can ever find. Once you stepped into the society, everything changes. Changes are changing every now and then. It is hard for us to stay put in just one area and not to step out of our comfort zones to accept challenges. In order to trust someone, you have to 1st trust yourself. Beliving that you are making the correct judgement. However, most of the time, our judgement fails us. Or rather myself. Sometimes, we sub consciously do something hurtful to someone and vice versa. Well, all i could say that is that is human nature.

Oh well, tml i am going to church with yoke kuan and champa. (: Strangely, yesterday Melvin called me and asked me wanna to go to church and he said he is going to CHC too. LOL. SO scary can! Its like we are really born to know each other very well. Maybe our previous lives are siblings for all we know. LOL. Seriously, we are 99% alike, despite he is a guy and i am girl. LOL.

Yeah, and 2 days ago, Joyce ,Jordin, Humaira and me were eating at pizza hut, we talked about our future careers. Joyce wanna to be an air force pilot and i wanna to be a commando in army. Crazy ppl like us think this far when it is like hard to acheive..LOL. SO FUNNY RIGHT! But till now, i think there is no female commando in the army. And the funny part is that 5 years dwn the road if we happened to be wad we want to be- to serve the govern and to be a civil servant,
our chilled out place will be ..
SAFRA!
our dinner place will be ..
SAFRA!
our bowling place will be ..
SAFRA!
our favourite place will be..
SAFRA!
our this, our that ALL will be in..
SAFRA!

LOL. I guess pretty much it will be like that. 24/7 our only place will be SAFRA! hahaha.. How ironic when other girls going to shop to chill or sitting in a cafe like a taitai and bitch! hahhaahaha... Somehow, maybe joyce's life and my life will be different from all the girls LOL. ((:
Funny right! hahaha. However, i have some doubts in joining the army. Cos Boon Kiat said that NS guys are pervertic and discriminate girls. BUT, THINK AGAIN! If a girl can even surpassed a guy's physical fitness and mentality, i dont see the case of any girl cant be a commando LOL. hahhaa.. Oh gawd! I am such a feminist! hahaha. Somehow, girls should prove to guys that we can be like them. (:haha... however the keyword here is : MAYBE!

RED LOBBIE! xD

2007-11-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

Liwen and me at the WRONG CONDO-shawnsussy(wadeva you spelt it LOL) when we are supposed to go to LILY-DALE condo for hidayah's bday party.So paisay la! LOL.
whatever la huh, we <3 CAM-WHORING!!!! ((:

Anyway, haha.. MY RECENT ENTRIES are not abt a guy! Oh sheesh! So many ppl think that i am ATTACHED! LOL. NO LA! SINCE WHEN! I am referring to GOD-JESUS!!! AIYO!!! HE IS SO AWESOME AND ALMIGHTY! AND when i said that i am returning to him, I am referring to CHURCH ON SUNDAY! I CANT WAIT TO GO BACK! I am going back to repent and astone all my sins. I want to renew myself. -___-'' Oookay, maybe my posts sounded too loving! haha.. but my love for god is really overpouring! ((: I love him forever and ever and it will never end till the day that i die. SO, CONCLUSION! I AM NOT ATTACHED! AIYO!!!!!! -____-'''
SO yeah, END OF STORY! LOL.

Yesterday, i was late for leisure basketball LOL. And the ppl who went were liwen, fan zhi, humaira, joyce and jordin.((: Well, it is really fun! haha. We played like 3 hours under the hot sun and so we are all CHAU TA!(sunburnt!) LOL. Despite of flu and cough, i went to play and thought that i would be cured. LOL. I was soooo wrong! It got worse! Damn it! =( Oh yeah! I can shoot a 3 pointer ball! YAY! But it is like one out of a million LOL. I was danm tyco! ((: And liwen can shoot 3 pointer too, BUT she was TYCO too LOL. Yesterday, was simply not my day LOL. Among all the balls that i have shot, i could only get in a few out of sooooo many balls! Darn it! =(

It was only liwen,me, fanzhi and jordin! And it SOOO HAPPENED to be that FAN ZHI AND JORDIN WERE PAIRED UP! and left with ME AND LIWEN! -___-'' As you guys can see, we didnt make it. WE tried oookay! ((: But they were simply too STRONG for us to handle! LOL. Anyway, NICE GAME! ((: Oh yeah! And that FAN ZHI won me in that blardy ABC! ARGH! FAN ZHI YOU WAIT! I WILL GO TRAIN 1st! LOL.((: And Jordin is really awesome too! He is quite fast! Liwen is picking up basketball and get the hangs of it! (: That's why i kinda of like basketball.(: BUT THE ONLY CONDITION IS THAT WE MUST MUST HAVE CHEMISTRY AMONG ONE AND ANOTHER! (: GREAT JOB GUYS! ((: Humaira and Joyce were literally hearing Mp3 and singing cos they just came back from SLE camp. We can understand that they are tired la(: And JOYCE! Take care of your index finger! So that we can play ball again! ((:
In short, we are all SUNBURNT! (:

After that,Joyce, Jordin, Humaira and i ate at PIZZA HUT! (; CHESSY LAVA RAWKS! (: YEA! *fast forward!*
After that i headed to Jonathan's house to learn guitar! (: BUT in the end, i chat with jenna and his mum for nearly 3 hrs lol. hahahhaa... So didnt learn! Darn! =( I wanted to learn fast so that i can play in church and in performances! That is one of my wish man! (: hahaha..

Today, diploma was reallly boring! Despite bringing so many goodies, we still can fall asleep or talked rubbish during lectures! LOL. Humaira and Joyce were having their 1st lesson and cos ofus, they didnt pay attention and talk crap with us LOL. (: AWESOME MAN! And there was this canto guy who is one of the newcastle admin person gave me HK flu medicine pills. Thanks man! But still, my nose still leak like a water tap! O.o And during the breaks, we went for training cos we wanna to be stronger! (: However, i was underperforming man! It simply sucks! =( But, nvm i am gonna to rest well and get well soon cos i wanna to go back training and to do my best! (:

I am sorry Atiqah that we always have diploma lessons and caused you guys cant train together as a team! I am really sorry. The diploma lessons schedule was fixed and we cant change it. We cant accomodated everyone. You have to understand that. And as for the job that liwen and i wanted to go for, it clashes with the fitness test! I know. I am in a dilemma but i remembered that i said that i will give up everything for the sake of training and yes, i will. So, conclusion, i am not going for the job interview and go for the test since that is the last time we can do cos Alfred is going to fly off soon and also, the whole team is present there. Okay, i will go for the test and i hope that i can do well. Seriously, i wonder wad kind of test he will give us. I am afraid that i am kicked out of the team. Sigh. Due to my back injury, i haven seen a doctor yet and i am afraid that on that day, i will underperform too. I wanna to be the best in the team too, and i wanna to be really committed for every single training cos i have the passion for track and it never dies. (: I hope you can understand that it is not we dont want to go and disappoint the rest, but the fact is that compromisation is really tough to make. We have to see the big picture.

Currently, i just watched finished watching 'Bend it like beckham' (: Well, it has been ages since i last saw that movie in the theatre with mum. I love this show so much! Somehow, there is a slight resemblance of me and the girl who named 'jess' in that movie. She has a passion for soccer and her parents in the end, supported her. I wonder when will MY MUM supports me when i go for competitions. Okay, i am not good in track, i admit. But, at least she can give me some moral support and root for me? Even not in the stadium, but at least the basic, at home she could just say 'good luck'. But she didnt. =( I am kind of sad but well, i have to embrace on! And i really hope that i will shine like the stars above- to be an outstanding student-athletic.(: Back to reality, it really needs lotsa of hard work and i am sure this road that i am embarking on aint easy. It never did and never will i give up. (:

Well, now life is pretty good for me since i have learnt to accept and forgive and also to explore new things. Esp, when i think of god, peace just come to me naturally. I feel so much happier ever since i repented.(: yeah and i guess that life for me now is to mugged hard, push my limits for every single track trainings ,and be a filial daughter as i am really trying very hard to be. Somehow, my plan always backfires. LOL.

2007-11-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

WELCOME BACK MY DEAREST PEOPLE! ((:
I MISS YOU GUYS LOADS LA! PEOPLE LIKE HUMAIRA, MELVIN, ATIQAH, JOYCE!!! ARGHHHH!! THOSE DAYS WITHOUT YOU GUYS SO SIAN LOL. ANYWAY, WELCOME BACK! I AM GRATEFUL THAT YOU ALL CAME BACK SAFE AND SOUND! XD CHEERS!

Training was uber tough, due to cough and flu virus spreading around.Nevertheless, i love Alfred's training cos it makes us stronger and fitter and faster! ((: My stepovers are like SHIT! PURE SHIT! Sigh, i shall do better and i shall do more jumps since i am not good in jumping yeah! ((: And during diploma lesson, liwen and i knocked off. LOL. Looks like it is only liwen and me sleeping in his lecture, but who gives a damn to boring lectures. However,
sometimes it is kind of FUN! LOL.
do this test yeah! hahaha.. xD xD xD
http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/1199469

2007-11-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIDAYAH! SWEET EIGHTEEN YEAH? HAHAHAHA.. LOVES! <3>

Today, we had diploma lesson. Seriously, it is realllllllllyyyyy boring! =( But then again, we have to go cos we have paid for the modules! AHHH! I dont know how long am i able to take this torture! =( Anyway, i am happy to see CANDICE, ALBERT, NICHOLAS AND LIWEN every single day! ((: NICHOLAS is OFFICALLY MY BROTHER TOO! HAHA SO HE IS MR TWEET JR. LOL. ((: Simply cos, bert and him looked darn alike ((:
After diploma, we headed off to meet Jerome and Fan zhi to play basketball at bishan! (: Whoohoo! I successfully completed my ABC! YAY! ((: And maybe i should consider joining external team ?LOL. kidding! I love track more than anything else, EXCEPT GOD! ((: yeah!! I missed Jerome larrrr and i am really happy to see him again! ((: NICE PLAY alright! ahaha and try not to rip off your shorts again yeah? Even though it is an accident! LOL. And Jerome, you told me that FAN ZHI is not good in basketball, but he is GOOD LOL. wad the! hahahaha.. And the biggest star should be liwen cos she really shoots in many many balls into the rings! Cheers man! You did it! ((:
After bidding them goodbye, liwen and me headed off to buy champagne for hidayah's birthday! Cos she is turning 18 and we wanna to make her feel that she is 18! ((: Aint we good! hahaa.. I hope she like the alcohol yeah! hahaha..((: cheers! xD

I am returning to him.
I am really happy to return to him.
Thank you, for giving me this chance and i will cherish it.
Never again, will i let go of you.
I love you!
Forever!
xD

AMAZING AND AWESOME IS HE.

2007-11-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

I realised that I have neglected him, always.
When I needed help, he will be there for me.
Rain or shine,
he will be there for me.
He never forsaken me, abandoned me.
It is I who neglected him and drifted away from him.
I shouldnt have allowed myself done so,
but,
I did it.
Not once, but many times.
I feel ashamed of myself.
I am a backslider.
I wanna to return to his arms.
I wanna to be with him forever.
He is my pillar of strength, my glimmer of hope, the light of my life.
HE is indeed AWESOME and ALMIGHTY!
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
AND,
I WONT LET HIM GO EVER AGAIN.
NEVER AGAIN.
I REPENT.
TRULY.

2007-11-04T21:49:00.001+08:00

The smell of the paint makes my head swirls badly. =(

2007-11-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THE SMILE THAT YOU HAVE PORTRAYED.

I LOVE THE WAY YOU INTERACT WITH OTHERS.

I LOVE THE WAY THAT YOU SAID 'MUST PUT IN HARDWORK TO STUDY,EH!'

I LOVE THE WAY THAT YOU SACRIFICED FOR ME AND PROTECTED ME UNDER YOUR ARMS.

I LOVE THE LIL ENCOURAGEMENTS THAT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME.

I LOVE THE WAY YOU COAXED ME TO SLEEP.

I LOVE THE TIMES WE SPENT TOGETHER ALONE.

I LOVE THE PICTURES THAT WE TOOK TOGETHER.

I LOVE THE DAYS WHEN WE SPENT TIME TALKING SO HEARTILY.

I LOVE THE SINGING THAT YOU ALWAYS SANG OUT OF TUNE.

I LOVE THE DAYS YOU SENT ME TO SCHOOL WITHOUT ANY COMPLAINS.

I LOVE THE NIGHT WHEN YOU COOKED DINNER FOR ME.

I LOVE THE DISHES THAT YOU SPECIALLY MADE FOR ME AND UNTIL NOW I STILL MISSED IT SO MUCH.

I LOVE THE THINGS THAT YOU BOUGHT FOR ME.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND EVEN TILL NOW,

I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

MY DEAREST GRANDMA,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT EVEN UNTIL NOW, I CAN STILL FEEL YOUR PRESENCE HERE.

EVEN THOUGH, I CANT REMEMBER CLEARLY MY 1ST STEP, MY 1ST CRY, MY 1ST WORDS OR MY 1ST LAUGHTER.. THOSE EMOTIONS ,BUT I AM POSITIVE THAT I SHARED IT WITH YOU AND YOU MUST HAVE BEEN ELATED TO SEE YOUR GRANDCHILD GROWING UP.

IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I HEAR YOUR VOICE, YOUR LAUGHTER, YOUR SINGING, YOUR EVERYTHING.

I JUST MISS YOU SO MUCH.

HOWEVER, I MUST ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU ARE LONG GONE SINCE 2 NOV 2002 AT 11.55AM.

IT HAS BEEN A LONG 5 YEARS AND I STILL LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

WORDS CANT EXPRESS THE LOVE I HAVE FOR YOU.

I REGRETTED SO MUCH THAT I HAVE MADE YOU ANGRY, MADE YOU MAD, MADE YOU SUFFERED.... THERE ARE SO MUCH MORE THAT I WANNA TO SHARE WITH YOU.

I WANNA TO SHARE WITH YOU MY LIFE, MY STORY, MY EVERYTHING.

I WANTED YOU TO SEE COUSION ANDY GETTING MARRIED, I WANNA TO SEE YOU SMILING HAPPILY AT HIS WEDDING AND TELLING HIM TO BEAR YOU GREAT GRANDCHILDREN.

I WANNA YOU TO SEE ME GETTING GOOD GRADES FOR O LEVEL AND NOW A LEVEL AND TILL THE DAY THAT I START WORKING AND HAVE A FAMILY OF MY OWN.

I WANNA TO GIVE YOU A LIFE THAT YOU NEVER HAD WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG.

I WANNA TO SHARE MY HAPPINESS WITH YOU SO MUCH.

I WANNA YOU TO BE WITH ME FOREVER.

I WANNA TO TELL YOU SO MUCH THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SO MUCH.

I WANNA TO LET YOU BE THE 1ST TO SEE ME GETTING MARRIED AND BEARING YOU A GREAT GRANDCHILD.

I WANNA EVERYONE IN THE WORLD TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE A FABULOUS GRANDMA AND MOTHER AND A FRIEND AND A SISTER AND EVERYTHING.

YOU ARE EVERYTHING TO US.

YOU ARE THE HOPE, THE LIGHT, THE STAND FOR ALL OF US.

WE KNOW THAT YOU LOVE US,

I NEVER EVER DID FORGET YOU.

EVERY NOW AND THEN, I AM ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU.

YOU ARE MORE THAN JUST A GRANDMA.

YOU ARE MORE THAN JUST A FRIEND WHO HEAR MY SORROWS.

I THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME, YOU.

I THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL DAD.

I THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME NICE FEATURES.

I THANK YOU FOR BRINGING ME UP SINGLE-HANDEDLY.

I THANK YOU FOR NOT LETTING ME GO ASTRAY.

I THANK YOU FOR TAKING CARE OF ME WHEN I AM SICK OR WHEN I WAS HAVING ASTHMA ATTACKS OR CHICKENPOX OR ANYTHING SYSTOMS.

I THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME HAPPINESS THIS 14 YEARS.

I AM SORRY TO GIVE YOU SUFFERING FOR THIS 14 YEARS.

I AM SORRY TO AGITATE YOU EVEN WHEN YOU ARE SICK.

I AM SORRY THAT I TREATED YOU SO BADLY IN THE PAST.

I AM SORRY FOR CAUSING YOU HAVING THIS SICKNESS.

I AM SORRY TO ALL THAT I AM THE CULPRIT THAT MADE YOU LEAVE US.

I AM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE DONE.

I DUNNO WAD CAN I DO TO MAKE UP TO YOU?

I AM FEELING SO LOST AND SAD COS I DUNNO HOW TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU.

I AM SO ALONE WITHOUT YOU.

WHENEVER I SEE THE PHOTOS OF ME AND YOU,

TEARS JUST STARTED DWELLED IN MY EYES.

I CANT CONTROL BUT TO CRY.

TO CRY FOR YOU,

TO CRY FOR MYSELF,

TO CRY FOR EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE CAUSED.

I AM THE ONE WHO SHOULD DIE,NOT YOU.

YOU DONT HAVE TO HAD THIS PAIN;THIS SICKNESS.

I AM THE ONE SHOULD HAVE EVERYTHING.

LET ME TAKE THE PAIN.

I AM SORRY THAT I AM SO IGNORANT AND WILFUL.

DEAREST GRANDMA,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

SO MUCH.

REST IN PEACE.

2.11.02.

halloween's party 07

2007-10-31T23:46:00.000+08:00

humaira's lil brother-future bf of mine! hahahahaah..
I love this pic the most! so hindi LIKE LOL.
dead.
soooooo scandalous!
blood. we are dying for.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QUAN SHENG!!!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN'S DAY TO ALL! ((:
Today it's my 1st time celebrating halloween's! haha.. I must say i really dress up real good! Its not the usual fiona that you guys used to see me as, haha.. I dressed as a dead hindi princess. With make up and all, i have transform from a toyboy to a lady like woman for the day just to shocked melvin and the rest!(: Thanks to humaira who puts on the eye liner and choosing the lip stick colour for me! ((: thanks, babe!

Early in the morning, i woke up late cos i was really too tired to wake up and plus, i have to meet champa at 8 am at amk station. I didnt make it on time so in the end , we reached humaira's hse at 9am. LOL. The funny thing is that on our way to her house, we bought her 2dollars mac meal. And we boarded up 165 to go her house, unfortunatelyl, we overshot the stop and went back to take the same bus again! While we were thinking where to alight for the detour trip, champa accidentally drop the muffin and it unravalled by itself from the wrapper and drop to the floor.LOL. Champa was saying that' i am never gonna to take food, fiona you take it." So i took it, however when we reach next bus stop, i accidentally drop humaira's tea on the floor and it leaks! I was like oh shit! This gonna to be so dead! LOL. Sigh, and yeah so in the end, humaira didnt get anything to eat in the morning. Sorry.=(

When we reached melvin's hse void deck, we went to put on our makeup and stuffs! ((: We looked really eerie and scary! haha.. And we really make used of everything that we have in the make up kit! And this is the 1st time that fiona brought a MAKE UP KIT in her bag! LOL. Surprisingly, liwen and cindy cant recognise me intially cos they said 'you really dont look like your usual self.'LOL. haha.. And yeah, i dressed as a hindi woman before applying all the stuffs! ((: Everyone in the train and bus before i came, they kept staring at me haha.. so awkward! haha.. But seriously, i must must thank humaira for making my hair curly too! And i really looked like my age now! haha..

*fast forward!*
Cindy dressed as a cinderella(she looks pretty! really! ), Liwen dressed as superman! (lol, she did it LAST MIN! ), carmen dressed as dead student cos she needs to go school thats why she wore school uniform LOL. Humaira dressed as a dead ballerina! (eerie but SEXY babe! ), chumpa dressed as a warrior mage!(she looks prettier without glasses and with makeup!), siti dressed as a sexy vampire! (her charm is there!), razia dressed as a seductive vampire too! (she looks hot too!) melvin of course dressed ehhh..i not so sure cos he has been changing his costume every now and then and i dresses as a dead hindi princess! ((:

We watched the craft at melvins house! (: And i must say that the food that he cooked is really awesome! A full spread of red dishes! LOL. Its nice really. Furthermore, we played tarot cards and solved some mystery things!((:

The party was really great and i won the best costume award cos i shocked melvin when i came in! hahaha.. So funny la! ((: Anyway, today is really a great day! ((: THANK YOU SUSU! ((:
btw, this i am really happy that i managed to dress up something that everyone cannot imagined and i have succeeded! ((: So yeah, thank you guys and happy halloweens! pictures are uploaded. http://s219.photobucket.com/albums/cc148/spasticplast/ yeah. ((: So do enjoy! ((:

2007-10-30T17:18:00.000+08:00

Dear you,

I know jolly well, you wont be able to read this letter.
Because, i never thought of giving this to you.
I tried so hard to make you understand,
yet day after day disappointments grew stronger and stronger.
I am so tired of all these but i still hang on to my belief because i was hoping that one day you will be able to understand you are not wad you used to say.
However, my efforts were futile.
I forced myself to accept this defeat and to forget you,
but i just cant.
In fact,
i let myself to plunged into this bottomless pit.

I thought love would reciprocate, but i was wrong.
Darn wrong.
I put in my heart and soul into this,
But your final words were- 'let's end it'.
I have learnt to accept your flaws, your character and you,
day by day.
However, I never had the foresight to see such a tragedy coming.
It has finally ended.
It pains me and hurts me so much.

You wish that i was here with you all these while and i have.
Cant you appreciate and see that i am making an effort to do my best.
I thought that you are the only one who truly cares about me.
But, i was darn wrong again!
I failed to let you see that we have a future,
instead,
you have inflicted me with so much pain and misery.

I gave you everything that i have,
priortise you before anything else,
how much more do you want?

I wrote this letter a thousand times,
just to make sure that my inner thoughts are written here clearly-in black and white.
I know i am dumb to do this,
because i know that you will never recieved this letter.
Never ever.

I have no regret in knowing you,
in fact, i am really happy to know that you actually cared for me.
Furthermore,
I never regretted my decision and to stick to it for as long as i could.
My last words to you-
'I love you.'

Yours sincerely,
Me.

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This is a letter or rather a poem that i just came to my mind.
just some inner thought of mine.
Take it that i am writing junk.
But dont take it that i am emo cos i wrote something like this.
Well, in life we have to accept defeat.
There are ups and downs in our lives.
Its either you embrace and move on,
or remain where it is and dwelled on it.
I have tried many ways, many ways to get up on my feet and believe that this is not the end.
However, things usually doesnt seemed the way it is.
I thought that i will have something to look forward and to anticipate to.
Then again, i was sooo wrong!
Time after time,
I pushed myself to the limits,
just to cast out all my sorrows.
I wanted to pour it out to someone so much.
But, circumstances forced me to keep my mouth shut.
I hope that those who are contented in life,
shouldnt be so ego about it.
Feel for others.
Not all have the luxury to have wad you have.
Every individuals are different.

2007-10-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

multi-racial really rawks.
BIMBOS!
masquarade;reflection.
No1 costume costume shop.AWESOME isnt it?

haha trying hard to be marilyn monroe LOL.

Today i went for training early in the morning at gombak! Oh my! I reached gombak at 7.30 and the rest reached at 8 and the liwen! reach at 9 plus! AWESOME MAN! We did ball training again! haha.. After that i went to meet champa and humaria to get our costumes. ((: I found something which is even better than dressing as a cinderella.LOL.haha We went to peace centre 1st. And we found this shop called 'house of costumes'. We went there yesterday but it was close. Today head back there and it was close again, so we went to call and the voice operator answered our call. -meaning no one there. But the shop entrance was really cold.. I can feel the cold air blowing out of the shop and champa went to the opp book shop to ask cos maybe they could have gone for lunch. However, to our amazement, the bk shop owner said that the costume shop didnt open for weeks! We got kind of freak out cos its really scary and furthermore we thought that it might have dead body lying there cos its sooo cold sheesh!The bk shop owner even scared us by saying that there might be something in there, you will never know LOL. We really got frightened and ran off!After that, we went to lil india! I didnt know that the lil india was somehow simliar to chinatown! hahaha. Seriously, lil india has many many unique features! -that is the 1st time i explore lil india. LOL. There are more than it meets the eye! Champa, humaira and i did henna! It was really well done and good job cos its really like some artist at work! The henna artist drew our hands like some rough paper work but the final product was really good! ((: I appreciate it!

And while i was waiting for champa, i saw this lil cute indian infant girl.(: I was like 'ohh! soo cute!!!!' hahahah. The mother was really good! She asked me if i wanna to carry the baby! I was like so hyper and agreed immediately! whoohoo! She was such a lovely child and this ang moh tourist took me and the indian infant! She was like the same as rest of the chinese babies! Cuddly and cute! ((: haha.. I guess the ang moh must be thinking spore is such a multi racial society. Seriously, it is rare to see a chinese carrying an indian baby! However, the ang moh only sees the good side of sporeans. In fact, we have segerated since god knows when. Racial harmony day used to be meaningful and now it is like so dead. -_-''

Deepavali is around the corner and yeah, if you guys have come to lil india, you ought too! Its really awesome! I acted like some tourists and kept taking shots! hahahaah.. Anyway, lil india has its own culture and moreover, i feel that it is much more livier than hari raya! hahhaha.. Next year, i am going to lil india again! wee! ((:

Anyway, i am really tired to blog. haha. So ciao! and looking forward to melvin's party! ((:

thanks chumpa and humaira!<3

2007-10-28T23:32:00.000+08:00

After reading joyce's blog, I really realised that i missed 07a3, 07a2 very very much.
Its like we spent the whole year together.
I remembered clearly the day before the 1st day of orientation, i was blardy afraid that no one get to be in the same OG with me. I was afraid to go school myself. Well, who dont at that pt of time. In the end, i found out that liwen and yu ting attending the same school as me! I was uber happy. The 1st few days of orientation was great! I met new friends like zion, xiao wei, nura, amelia during the orientation. We were considered one of the most hyper grp of ppl! haha.. During the subject combination which everyone had to go through, my newly made friends and i were talking non stop! hahahaha.. And alson made a distinctive impression for all of us. I thought he was ah beng, but in fact, he was a nice chap! Really a nice chap! (:

During the whole orientation, i really love my Og and ogl0 cheryl and charissa and my clan-utu. (: Without them- my friends, i wont be there being so hyper and everything. Seriously, i miss them loads. After orientation has ended, i met an extraordinary class-07A3. This class seriously, have full of vibrant and energy. And so happened that liwen and yu ting were in my class too! Cos we took the same combination! LOL.Liwen and me dress as CHIJ girls and they were fooled by our appearance lol. hahaha. And we met new friends from all around the schools-sji, chij, bowen, marist, west spring, jurong, everywhere... north, south , east, west you name it, we have it. (: And not forgetting our favourite teacher- MR KING AZLAN! He is the one who moulded our class and also bringing our class together. Through all the outings and class ponning sessions, our bonding becomes really great! I really anticpated to go school everyday! I wanna to see all my wonderful friends. ((: They are the ones who really make me feel so alive, so belonging. We shed tears together, joy together, love together as a class. No other class are like us, we are the best class and the most bonded one. (: I will always remember hammie's kuku shot! jerome's 'wake up your IDEA la!' , gwen and guanlin's screams! and many more.... And the very 1st class to make class tshirt! And haemal is the desinger for the shirt!YAY!And not only that, our class has created one couple who is still maintaining now at this very moment. Although there are hiccups here and there, but they managed to be together. ((: They are jared and guanlin! (: And we love our emo song- all the good things come to an end. This song represents our love for our class, the joy and tears we shed. Just one last thing to say- 07a3 really tickle me, baby! I LOVE THEM..

During this point of time, I joined back x-cty. Knowing that my passion is still there, i didnt give up. Liwen and i were the 1st to join the cca! And we really love it. There is a pt of time whereby i was super pissed when we told Ms Ong that we dont wanna to train cos we have to attend our class dinner and will be training the next day to make up. But in the end, we have to go for training! wad the! I was so pissed cos its the last dinner for A3! damn it! But nevertheless, i still love x-cty.

And JAE orientation starts, i was kind of reluctant to leave a3 cos they are my everything. Things changes drastically. I was emo and albert was like.. let it go. let it go. But i simply cant and everyone is 07A2 was very understanding and so, in the end, the next 2 or 3 days i got better and i apologise to them. Our home tutor was -Ms low wai peng! She is indeed a very good home tutor! I am happy to have her! And our class is the loud and proud-ppl like melvin, albert, pam,, champa, me, and more are really loud hailers! LOL. This class is full of bubbly energy and really nice to be with! We are like some international class cos we have miixture of vietnamese, french, dutch girl, philpine girl who takes german! and more... haha.. Seriously, this class has full of talents. And melvin was actually one of the guy whom i hate alot. Because, he really irriates me at the 1st sight. But in the end, i ended being his 'mrs moo' and we were so alike in terms of personality and stuffs. I am really happy that most of us got promoted. I will difinitely miss kala cos she is the one whom i share my stories with. ((: A great friend of mine.

After the june holidays, i converted track with liwen. We were kind of happy and everything cos alfred is seriously a good coach! And we made friends with conan, shali, jonathan, hilmi, melanie, cheryl, atiqah, fadly, durga and more... And not only that, his trainings made us stronger day by day! In gombak, we really meet those national athletics like giovanni, uk shyam, poh seng song, lay chee and many more. Life has been great training in gombak! ((: However, cos of the obs thing, we almost have a tough fight with mr ram. And its really not our fault that nationals are like around the same time. However, during that pt of time, i injuried myself and i wasnt fit to do intensive training but i still ran for nationals. I met sann there too! And she made to finals. (: Even though i didnt break my timing, but i am happy that i managed to complete it. (: next year i will do better! And train so much harder then before!

And i met really various ppl from various classes. Sport's day was really cool! And road run was great! Inter hse games was kind of fun as well. haha. I remember on the 1st day of school i was really happy cos my school has a track! YAY! haha.. But our school food sucks. LOL.

And during midyear, i was really preparing damn hard for it. And i was tonning in liwen hse to mugged for SEA history and in the end i score well. However, i didnt meet the criteria if i were to perform like this. So i worked even harder to achieve my goal!(:

And so came promos, I really studied realllll hard and i made it to PRE U 2! I was elated and joyful and thank god for giving this opportunity to do this.

During that pt of time, around augest, i have let go of the past. Yes i have, but i dint expected that the letting go the past would really spelt death for me. I shouldnt have gone through that, it shouldnt have. But my heart tells me too. DAMN IT! Anyway, i have to embrace since its over. I know its hard but i can do it. I really hope. There is a saying, to like someone takes a minute, however to let go of it, it takes years. Sigh it is blardy true. Anyway, i am not going to continue on with this.

I hope the upcoming holidays allow me to reflect on wad i have done and improve on it.. ((: Neverthelesss i thank god for everything. I am grateful! thank you. times flies, but the memories are etched in my heart, always. Thank you guys for making everything possible.

cinderella with sneakers.

2007-10-28T21:23:00.000+08:00

chumpa, humaira and me.
chumpa was sipping her strawberrty smoothie. (:
The children bridemaid's dress which cost $109.95 and amazingly i could fit in! LOL. stunned! And i wore a pair of nike dunks! haha.. And no way am i going to show the full picture of me! I look RETARDED! LOL.

Yesterday i drank quite alot of alcohol and i almost got hangover. I was having headache when i woke up. -_-''

In the afternoon, i went out with humaria and chumpa.

We went to bugis and some ulu places like peace centre, lil india, arab streets.... to find halloween's costumes! (Melvin! See how much effort we put in for your party LOL.)

We went round hunting, however when we wanted to cross the road to go to other shopping centre, heavy downpour came. >< In the end, we stuck in that shopping centre for 1 1/2 hrs! LOL. But we found interesting things like 'lip' phone, coke phone, transformers toys and more....Interesting eh. Haha...

We wanted to go to bugis, despite of the heavy rain, we went to take bus to lil india where the stupid bugis street is just across the road.-_-'' When we arrived at the lil india mrt station, the stupid bus just drove pass us and splashing us with rainwater! damn it! ARGH!

In bugis, we wanted to go to john little, unfortunately, i mistaken OG for john lil. haha.. And in the end we went in to find shoes. To our amazement, we found children clothings! haha.. And i saw this bridesmaid's dress which i think i could fit in! LOL. So, we went to the dressing room to try on! haha.. The salesperson didnt stop us! LOL. And i tried and whoohoo! I can fit into the dress! Amazing. Humaira was like laughing like mad cos i look sooooo cute! She said. -___-'' And chumpa was like laughing too. Sigh. Wad is wrong with the dress and me? haha.. Humaira added i looked like the cinderella's story the girl cos i wore sneakers.Oh my! -_-''

*fast forward*
I ran into my uncle. haha.. He was kinda of surprised to see me.He told me that during the dec holidays, they are going to Europe for holiday! AH! damn it. I hope next year i can go to korea for history trip! hahah.. I wish! LOL.

And when we we heading home, we past lil india again! This time, its due to the Deepavali season, we saw many many indians at mustafa... and many other lil india places. LOL. It looks exactly like chinatown. LOL. We could imagine shali in the midst of the crowd. LOL. hahahaha.. Seriously, it does look like the chinese chinatown! haha.. And in the bus, we happened to see a shop called 'abc shop' haha.. It says that the cheapest things that you can find in spore, and if you found any shop selling cheaper than us, bring the item back to us and we will give you a FULL REFUND!' LOL. hahah how amazing that is.

I feel kind of lost when i was in there. haha.. Maybe the feeling of belonging is not there. I still miss my house area, i feel much more belonged to here. LOL.

After going one whole day with chumpa and humaira, we didnt really spent much on clothings cos most of the shops were closed. LOL

Anyway, tml i have training and international history lesson early in the morning! SOOOO DREADFUL! I dont feel like going for lessons. Sigh.

2007-10-27T16:07:00.000+08:00

"Over You"

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

2007-10-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

Today or rather a few minutes ago,
it was rather a whole lot of emotions going through me.
In the morning, i act as if there was nth happened but actually i was trying to embrace myself.
So much of a lie and so much of a torture.
I thought i have 'over you',
but it doesnt seemed the way it is.
Trainings are just excuses for me to drift away from this thing.
And after that, it is back to square one.
How much could i still take it?
I have no clue.
Training was fun.
Real fun. (:
Even though, i didnt managed to go to polyclinic to get my x-rays for my backbone and knee done,
nevertheless, i am proud that i went for training.
And the proudest thing i ever did,
to put in my contacts for less than 10 mins! YAY! =D
After training,
Alfred said he wanted to coach CJC track.
He is thinking whether should he do that and he asked our opinions.
And we all concluded that we dont want to train with CJ track cos its really...
many reasons to say no to him.
I know it is being selfish for us to do so,
but we really have our own plights.
We will still respect your decision.
And most imptly, alfred will win in macau games next week and do spore proud!(:
After that, i went to meet up with yoke kee and iris.
I told iris many stuffs and it's somehow like wad she is feeling and doing now.
I feel so lost and blank.
All i want is to have comfort.
Her plight isnt that bad, but still,
there are many problems arising and she cant handle.
Hang in there, iris! most imptly, Os is still the most crucial thing.
Yoke kee-another prob,
so many things that is bothering her and she dont know wad to do.
I really wanna to help her,
but i dont know how.
I hope she will get better and i know that she will never let go of her bf!
I am positive!
Stay strong, yoke kee!
Lastly, something really saddening going to happen to my 2 best friends!
They have been together for soooo long and now cos of a reason that isnt suppose to be a reason to arise.
He doesnt want to let go, but she wanna to get out all the responsiblity and stuffs.
Sigh, i really wanna to help him, but it is somehow beyond my limits or worse still, i cant even handle my own probs, wad makes you think that i can help you?
Nevertheless, i will try cos you guys are really my best friends!
Hang in there! And pray.

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So many things happened today and i am kind of lost.
I wanted to cry in the park just now,
but seeing yoke kee in this state,
why would i wanna to cry along with her.
I must learn to stay strong.
It is heartbreaking to see something like these to happened.
All i wanna to do is to give my best and if it is within my capabilities,
I will do my best to help.
I feel so disillusioned and helpless.
Tell me wad i should do?

tomorrow marks the last day of pre u 1.

2007-10-25T20:08:00.000+08:00

You wont believe it. I went to school today cos humaira wanted to to hear PRINCIPAL"S TALK! oh my gawd.
I dragged myself up just to go to school. -__-''

After tml,
our lives will changed.
Some promoted, some advanced, some retained, some kicked out.
Sigh,
this is life.
So cruel, so evil.
I will miss my 07A2, even though next year i will still be seeing them.
Not sure next year, will we be in the same class?
I will miss those PAE times.
It's like yesterday was just 07A3,
the days we spent laughing, playing basketball, and all the rubbish together.
I will miss 07A2 as well,
we had all those fun and tears and everything together.
Thank you for ever being so united as a class.
I hope to be with you guys again next year.
Just reminsicing some thoughts about this year,
wad i have done.
I have realised that life in MI isnt that bad afterall.
We meet all kinds of people and knowing each other's nature even better.
Somehow, time would just simply stopped here.
Replay. rewind. recall.
Those moments are really priceless.
Next year,
it will be different for all of us.
Hopefully, we all are able to make it.
CONGRATS TO A3 CLIQUE-WE ALL HAVE PROMOTED!
CONGRATS TO MOO FAMILY! WE DID IT!
CONGRATS TO TRACK PEOPLE! COS WE DID IT TOO!
CONGRATS TO THE REST WHO MADE IT TO ROUND 2.
((:

i am trying to hard to let go. ARGH! i thought i could. However, i haven. Fiona!try harder you , dodo! =(

over you.

2007-10-24T23:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was CHAN LIWEN'S BIRTHDAY! ((: happy sweet 17!!
Btw, we got her a yellow levi's polo shirt and also we played a prank on her. Durga, Atiqah and me bought flour and egg to sabo her. And she stinked like hell! LOL. After playing, she had to parade around the WHOLE GOMBAK to show our masterpiece. ((: Anyway, hope you are not angry eh!

And yesterday while Durga, Atiqah and me were in the train heading towards gombak. Suddenly, Atiqah puked at the platform! Everyone in the train peeked out to take a look. Durga and me were so tired and we were practically stoning. And when we saw Atiqah puking, we were like
fiona,' eh, durga. Atiqah puked eh. How?-__-'
Durga,'oh, go out and see her lor.'
fiona,'orh okay.'
----end---
We were literally stoning and we found something amazing. The jurong east mrt station, there is those esclators and we realised that behind it was an OFFICE! whohoo! And we seeked hehp from this young lady and she was like so friendly to us and she was from track too! ((: We sat there and so conincidentally, liwen reached jurng east,so we asked her join in! haha. Atiqah puked was due to the aromatherapy smell and also, the food she ate at banquet. LOL. Durga feel like puking too but didnt. And i was having headache! We wanted to skip training, but in the end, we went and we sabo liwen successfully. (:

Today, navin at last! brought his lagaan disc and we watched it during home tutor period. Oh yeah, btw, i got my report slip,
i scored.
GP-S(unexpected, i thought i will get U LOL.)
Chinese-C (damn!)
Mathematics-S (try harder!)
Economics-E(whew! the project helped me too!)
History-C( LOL. jaw drop! 1st time taking and i upgraded to a C! )
literature-U(haha. this really cannot make it.)

yeah and this is my result. ((: Hoping to do much better in pre u 2 next year.
And those who didnt get promoted or retained or kicked out, dont fret!
Try to appeal back to school or seek helped from teachers! I am sure that they will help!
Give yourself a lil faith!
And that is all you need. (:
smiles.
Today's dinner was great! I am happy to be with yu ting, kelin and meiqi! haha.. Have such a big plate of fish and chip at fish and co LOL ><>

results.

2007-10-22T22:34:00.001+08:00

Today i have received my results. (:
I did quite alright i guess, yeah.
I have passed 2 h2 and 1 h1(:
It is not really some awesome result but yeah, i met the criteria(:
Moreover, i passed h2 history and econs, h1 chinese. ((:
Oh well, i was quite shocked when i received my international history result.
I passed! haha.. all thanks to carmen! ((:
She just summarise for me all the cold war points with 2 foolscap papers and i just studied that and went for exams! hola! Anyway, thanks carmen! ((:
And econs the best part was i scored one qns 17/25! YAY! I was so elated but (sigh..) the other qns i scored like 8/25! LOL. Wad an irony! -___-'''
Anyway, i think i can promoted. (:
And hopefully, my clique ppl and liwen's clique, and cindy and carmen are able to promoted! ((:
Btw, most of them got promoted and i am happy for them! YAY!
Also, congrats to jerome and zhan wei, both of them are able to go J2! ((:

P.s. Thanks guys for being with me when i am down.
When i really need someone, you guys are there for me.
I am grateful, really.
And i promise, no more EMO!
Deep down in me,
I know for sure one thing.
Fiona has moved one more level up! haha..
She is going to be strong!
And only has a burning passion for track! ((:

changed? or changing?

2007-10-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

I am afraid of receivng results tml.
I am afraid of seeing it that is not my expectations.
I fear that everything will end,
just like a dream.
I fear that things wont the same as before.
I fear that track meeting willl have a lot of conflicts.
I scared that everything of tml will changed my life.

I want good results.
I want to get promoted.
I want to stay strong.
I want a life that i deserved.
I want to run well.
I want to change the things now.
It has becoming worse and worse.

My mind is in a deep whirlpool of thoughts.
I am simply not myself anymore.
=(
but i still hope the rest of pre u 1 will get promoted.
I believe that you guys can do it.
faith is all you need.
amen.

prolonged death.

2007-10-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was our history I -podcast thingy at cine. (: Oh well, it is uber fun ONLY when taking pictures and having so much fun making those funny podcasts! ((: After that, liwen, zai, jon and me watched resident's evil-extinction. It was a great movie. So much better than the the previous one. (: It is quite worth the money to watch. (: Okay, it was supposed to be quite scary show, but in the end, it turned out to be sooooo anti-climax cos of liwen and zai. -___-'' Those who watched should know these parts.
1st anti-climax part.
Towards the end, there was this part which has bloody stains on the wall which looks like some dead men bloods.
Liwen said,' it looks like some loansharks splashing some pig's blood on the walls!' -___-''
when she said this, we were still watching the movie.
2nd anti-climax part.
The ending , the bad guy was killed by the lasers. The lasers are like some net thingy which killed the bad guy. And guess wad liwen said!
liwen,' you know the chopping of the bad guy's head,when the lasers were slicing off the head, it looks like BACON!'
I was like -____-''' and we were still watching.
And jon later added on,
the slicing of the head, each piece weight 100g right?
I was like oh my gawd! -____-'''' CMI! (cannot make it!)
who on earth can think until like that?! Only them! sigh.
3rd anti-climax part,
The starting of the show, the zombies were combing at the base whereby only humans are left there.
liwen,' you know the starting right? The zombies combed around the base area,and grabbing the fences and trying to break in, they look like they wanted to go in to CLUB! cos, they look like clubbing!
oh my gawd! She is one that really can tickled ppl to the max! LOL.

And so, this is so CANNOT MAKE IT! LOL. But afterall, the movie was really good!

Today's training was quite good, and though we lack of fitness, we managed to complete it. And today only 3 of us turned up! -Liwen, Atiqah and me. (:
Liwen! rest well and heal faster kay! So that we can trained together.xD
Alfred, seriously, IS a VERY VERY GOOD COACH! ((:

Next monday, many things will be happening. I am still kind of worried.
Early morning, there will be track meeting announcing who is the upcoming captain and stuffs like that. And many more issues will rise on that day. Sigh, it is kind of vexing for everyone, i guess.
And after that, we WILL KNOW WHETHER WE GET PROMOTED OR NOT. It is kind of vexing and living in an agony for now cos it is really a torture! Why cant they just tell us NOW! =( Sigh. Anyway, our fate are sealed. Whether we get promoted or not, it has already been done. We can do anything abt it except to pray for the best! I really hope my clique- melvin, albert, champa and quan sheng really do really really well! And liwen's clique too! (:

After monday, i shall know wad steps to take and not to take. I have to make a decision quickly. Who knows, maybe i will be appealing to Nafa! But then again, wad makes me think that they will accept me? Sigh, i guess this weekend, i have to brood over these issues over and over again! =(

hola!

2007-10-16T22:24:00.000+08:00

Today's training is FUN FUN FUN! ((:
I miss training in gombak.
Even though, its tough cos its back to fitness training,
but it is really fun! haha..
I enjoyed it and so do the rest. ((:
ALL THE WAY, TRACK TEAM! ('',)

BTW, i bought 2 tee-shirts and one belt in bugis street and i spent like 35$ only. haha.. more to go! xDi love shopping with HUMAIRA! xD xD xD

this moment.

2007-10-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

I found this picture on friendster. haha..((: It has been like 3 years or 2 years? I cant really remember.
Anyway, i kind of miss my secondary school life. Everyone has changed. Literally, everyone. Those people whom i known for years have changed. Some changed, well there are only a handful of them remained the same. Life now and the past is so different. In abt 3-4 mths time, those who attended the same secondary school as me, same class with me, same chord with me, are turning 20 soon. Oh well, time certainly flies. When i was 16, i tell myself, 'no way! am i turning 20 so soon!' Sigh, it is part and parcel of life.
Well, i didnt really hang out with them much now. More or less, i am hanging out with my school ppl more than anyone in my sec school. I miss my 5n1. We have been together through thick and thin, now we have changed.
Changed to be a better person.
Changed to be a worse person.
Changed to be anything .
Not saying that i am emo,
is just that,
time files and everyone changes.
Just that we didnt know,
just a blink of an eye,
everything changes.

Now, i am feeling great with my current life and i love everyone. ((: They simply make my day! haha..Sometimes, i feel that i should be born in the 90s. haha.. Oh well, 80s ppl aint tt bad too. LOL. Thanks for being my friend. Esp those close ones. - LIWEN! , MELVIN!, CHAMPA, HUMAIRA, ALBERT..... many more.. you guys are simply great! Thanks. ((:

2007-10-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

Singaporeans are SO FREAKING INCONSIDERATE!!! In a crowded hawker's center, when people finished eating, cant they just let those who are carrying heavy stuffs to sit? DAMN IT! They just continue to talk and talk as if WE were transparent! FUCK MAN! Wad kind of society is this. What kind of Singaporeans are we? Educated or not? They are the FUCKING SAME! They think that they owned the whole place? Oh well, think abt it. So wad you paid the service tax, gst, blah blah, I dont give a SHIT! But at least, be considerate to others. It is just FUCKING idiot man. Those people are worthless and sucky! I am not trying to sterotype ALL Singaporeans, but its just really pissed me off when they are treat local singaporeans like... ah! FUCK! Dont wanna to talked abt it anymore. It just Us, its just OUR IDENTITY! damn it.
Just a bitchy post abt sporeans. Well, i guess most WILL agree to me. I hope.

And i just started my portfolio on graffiti and others. haha.. Well, nothing great but yeah, it is really something that i inspire to do. Art is a form of leisure to me! And i believe that one day, everyone will know how to appreciate artworks. ((: My portfolio is merely a sketchbook, so yeah. And i hope one day, i will be able to complete this sketch book and every bits and pieces of hardwork will allow me to review back myself in the past. ((:
p.s. THANKS A MILLION!!!! CHUMPA for the POEM AND THE INTRO! ((:
MELVIN for editing the poem. (:
CHRISTINE AND ISABELLA who inspired me to do this! ((: wee!

2007-10-12T19:19:00.000+08:00

(:

2007-10-11T17:15:00.000+08:00

YAY! Another upcoming rhapsody.((: It has been so long since they had another rhapsody! I miss those days we trained so hard just for tt day! ((: haha.. Come to think of it. i miss choir alot! haha... I miss those times singing with my choirmates.((: Anyway, i really like those times. ((: Here is a video of them. ((: enjoy!
for more stuffs, check it out at http://web.mac.com/artcademy/NicolaChoo/HSS_Rhapsody.html

it spelt death

2007-10-09T15:27:00.000+08:00

B-e-a-u-tiful Picture! ((: haha..

Tomorrow marks the day that we are gonna to get our results,
perhaps.
I am actually afraid of receiving it.
Oh well, who don't?
The tension in me is just too much too bear.
Just hope the best out of it.
And,
all the best to everyone.
(:

I wanna to work! Anyone has any job to intro?(: thanks.

I wanna to drink alcohol man!
=(
boohoo.

hope

2007-10-07T18:26:00.000+08:00

These few days, i didnt really enjoyed the hoildays.
Perhaps, i am too lazy to go out as well.
I went to guitar shop with jon yesterday and i was rather fascinated by all the wonderful, pretty guitars.
Seriously, if i had the money, i would buy LOL.
I saw this lil kid, i guess his age is arnd 8 years old? haha. he seems to know alot abt guitar!haha.. really! Compared to me, i am nth. LOL Still a noob.
And the shop is located at peninsula basement! LOL
Tt is the place where i used to buy my track shoes and sports stuffs.
I didnt know there are shops located at the basement.
But, really wanna to thank you for bringing me there.

Liwen, i really dont wanna to go and i have my own reasons.
Its just.... ah! Dont ask me.
I dont wanna to tell.
Just enjoy.

Jared, welcome back to Spore and really hope that a3 could meet up soon!

I hate my life. I wanna to end it.
seriously.
but i cant.
someone, pls help.
I REALLY HATE IT SO MUCH!

p.s. I AM NOT EMO!
and i hope that she will be fine after all these shit ordeals.

all i need is you.

2007-10-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

I dunno where to start,
perhaps, its just so hard to speak to you now.
I yearn to talk to you just like the past.
I want to share my happiness and my sorrow with you.
I love this person so much.
She is not an ordinary person.
She belongs to you and she is faithful to you.
You give her life, give her strength to live in this world.
You gave her happiness that she never had,
but you give her so much sufferings as well.
She treats you so well and respect and believe in you,
so please,
dont take her away from us.
Give her a miracle and a glimmer of hope,
and give us a chance to be with her again.
Though, i know time is running short,
i knew her only for a few months.
Yet, i feel the warmth, the kindness and the joy in her when she talks abt you.
She is a person listens and understands us even though there is generation gap.
I am begging you right now,
heal her and give us some miracle.
Please.
Give us a hope.
Tomorrow is not a promise, but a chance.

btw, lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY CANDY-MOP!
SWEET 17 TO YOU! ((: SMILES.

some idiotic quiz LOL.

2007-10-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

[one] what is your natural hair colour?
jet black.

[two] where is your default picture on friendster taken?
in my TWEENIE'S　HOUSE!

[three] what's your middle name?
faith. hahahaaha.

[four] your current relationship status?
single, but not avilable LOL.

[five] does your crush like you back?
eh, dunno.

[six] what is your current mood?
Extremely LOW.

[seven] what colour underwear are you wearing?
black,

[eight] what makes you happy?
SUSHI BUFFET!

[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, what you would change?
change everything right from the start.

[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
dog? ah! koala Bear! ((:

[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
haha like duh. (X but i think i hit the car not the car hit me LOL :-/

[thirteen] something you do a lot?
EMOing? hahaha

[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
RAin-breaking benjamin!

[fifteen] who did you copy and paste this from?
melinda and liwen.

[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as you?
bealson! haha..

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
1 day ago. LOL. =(

[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
yeah. haha.. Choir performance. (:

[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
PSYCHIC POWER!

[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?
dunno eh. Random at times.

[twenty-one] what do you usually order from starbucks?
mocha ice blended! ((:

[twenty-two] what's your biggest secret?
I cant say it. =X

[twenty-three] favorite colors?
PURPLE! GREEN! BLUE! WHITE! BLACK!

[twenty-four] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
yeah! Powerpuff girls? hahahaahaha..

[twenty-five] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
SATAY!!!!!!((:

[twenty-six] you speak any other language?
English, Chinese, Cantonese but i am MAJOR IN SINGLISH! hurhur.

[twenty-seven] what's your favorite smell?
Any nice food! haha

[twenty-eight] if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
live.

[twenty-nine] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
eh..Yoke kee! She just hugged me like tt LOL.

[thirty] have you ever kissed in the rain?
SIAO! haha..

[thirty-one] what are you thinking about right now?
how to resolve one issue. Vexing!

[thirty-two] what should you be doing?
chatting! this is wad i am doing now wad! haha..

[thirty-three] what was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
'golden retriever'

[thirty-four] how often do you pray?
not so often. frequent?haha.. i guess so.

[thirty-five] do you like working in the yard?
maybe.

[thirty-six] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
wei leng will be the BEST!

[thirty-seven] do you act differently around your crush?
Like duh! haha..

[thirty-eight] name one song that reminds you of an ex?
listen to your heart-DHT (not the TECHNO version, pls! =()

[thirty-nine] who was the last person to make you cry?
'golden retriever.'

10 TAGS!
liwen, melinda, humaira, candice, yoke kee, melvin, cindy, joyce, yu ting, kelin! (:

2007-10-03T12:08:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!((:
PROMOS HAVE FINALLY ENDED! WEE! ((:

the lovely humaira was here (((((((:
HUMAIRA ROCKS.(X

FINALLY, THE END OF ALL AGONY!!!((:
AND LATER HUMAIRA,LIWEN, MELVIN, CINDY AND CARMEN GOING TO CINE TO EAT SUSHI BUFFET!!!!!HOLA!!((:

2007-09-30T20:37:00.000+08:00

I found this on deviant art. haha. Well, this word really describe me alot. =x And, next wednesday is my last paper.I dont know whether i can do well, but i will try my very best to at least score some marks to get a sub pass for lit. If i could get pass, I WILL REJOICE! ((: These few days will be quite bored for me since i am free. LOL.

Btw, i really want to learn guitar! And i am learning it from Jon, so hopefully i got enuff money to buy a guitar for myself so that i can practice. ((: After learning guitar, i wanna to learn drums! haha.. There are so much things to learn even though my mum doesnt encourage me too.=X Oh well, i have to save really hard to achieve the things i want. Currently, i am watching some Sports channel show. They are showing the IAAF athletics. =D Somehow, i really got the urge to RUN! I am itchy for a RUN! I am dying dor a RUN! ((: I hope Alfred could resume training real soon! (: I really wanna to do REALLY VERY WELL THIS TIME! I know that this year road run, my timing and my position was FREAKING lousy so i will try my utmost to do well next year! ((: Nevertheless, i hope my teammates can excel even further and reach higher! ((:

I am really afraid that i couldnt promote to pre u 2. If i cant, where should i go?I have no idea. I dont wanna to retain in pre u 1 and i regret so much that i didnt study much for history. There is no time and its so exhausting! If only history exam is on monday, i will not be sitting dwn here blogging abt how regretful and resent myself so much! I want to PROMOTE DESPERATELY! I know liwen can even though she didnt study much as well, i know melvin can cause he can score in all his H2, i know everyone else can. But, for me. I have no faith in promoting. SIGH! Wad should i do? I really regret it so much. SIGH! Anyway, all the best to the rest of the ppl out there still having their promos! You guys dont be like me. No matter how tiring it is, how tedious it could be, you guys must perservere to achieve wad you want. Its just like running and i dont seemed to have tt urge on that day. DARN IT! If i can promote, hahahahahahahaha, TT OF COURSE WILL BE UBER GOOD LAR! ((:

icons of self-denial. LOL.x)

2007-09-28T20:05:00.000+08:00

BREAKING BENJAMIN LYRICS "Rain"
Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,
I don't have a pastI just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,
Rain rain go away,Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around
Safe to say from here,
You're getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

I would rate this song- 5 stars! ((: WEE! And today's history was SUCH A FLOP! =X I know how to do, but didnt study much. I was so exhausted until i could slept in the exam hall! =X Sigh, i hope i can pass, I hope i will pass. =( Fingers CROSS! LAST paper on wed! Hopefully, i can do well!((: CHEERS!
((:
-ffyona-
i dont know who i am now.
you have taken away my identity.

Breaking Benjamin - Rain (Acuostic)

2007-09-28T20:03:00.001+08:00

fiona is such a twit. asking me to upload videos for her while she badmouth me through msn. tsk. btw, if you haven't already guessed who i am, liwen here. -_-

exams fever!

2007-09-26T18:28:00.000+08:00

HEY guys, yeah i am fine now.I am taking this chance now to blog while waiting my hair to dry so that i can plop to my cozy bed! ((: And perhaps is exams stress. The deadly PROMOS sydrome. LOL. xD Anyway, i am left with lit and history! Oh dear! =( I dunno whether am i am able to pass anot! LOL. x( Furthermore, today math's paper is a FLOP! I tried my best, but my mind somehow didnt function well. DARN IT! oh well, blame it on my own stupidity. LOL. =( And 5 more days left and i can PLAY LIKE CRAZY! LOL. Well, actually look on the other side, its not! =( If i didnt do well, holidays are like schooldays. I mut really work superb hard for it. LOL.

As for lit, i got nth much to say. Just tt suprisingly, my othello scored the highest in class which is not something to awe abt, it cos i read from some reference book and i copied it down and added my own opinion abt the play. So, after all my lit isnt tt good. Bern is better at lit and so does melvin! Anyway, i cant be bothered much except that, Jared is coming back from Vietnam, and Kenneth coming back from aussie. LOL (:

And you guys out there, work hard eh! Do well so that we can play hard too! ((: CHEERS!
Lastly, nana ah! your results for prelims must work doubly hard !I assume that you wanna to go NUS right? haha. STRIVE FOR IT!(: GO acjc! go alina! haha..((: take care, babe!

p.s. thanks for everyone's concern and i promise nver to do that again! If i didnt that again, you guys can SLAP me! haha.. kidding! ciao!

2007-09-24T17:28:00.000+08:00

PROMOS REALLY SUCKS! I dunno why i have done that at the 1st place? Choosing something which is so hard to get good grades. I didnt give up till now, but think again.. should i quite MI and join poly? Or should i just go and work now? I need an answer to this.

And i am really sorry to MELVIN, HUMAIRA, CHAMPA, CINDY AND LIWEN. If i didnt cried and making a scene like a depression, i wont be like that. I am so stressed up. You guys are so pro in studying comparing to me, i am nth worth. Even though, how much i tried. Sometimes, ppl out there just make fun of me and challenged me at the weakest subjects. Or boast in front of me, telling me that they have better grades than me. Well, this is life. Sad to say, i HAVE TO FACE IT! I hate the current self. I have lost my own identity and becoming so tempermental and emo. I am sorry guys, you have to face that EVERY SINGLE FU*CKING day! I dont want to, but can i? You guys can just leave me alone, let me think whether should i study and mugged real hard, or just let go. You guys still have your future and i know you wont be bothering wad would i get. So wad for buck up? well, i decided to forgo this Freaking exams and do wadeva i can. If i cant promote, i will QUIT MI as well. Save time and money rather then repeating the whole F*cking syallbus. Well, you might think that it is so silly of me to do so, but i dunno who else to confide to. Not to you guys, not to mum. Sometimes, i just want to let go everything and just go in peace. Its really sucky man. =( I have struggled so hard to achieved wad i wanted, and now i wanted to give up, wad a contridiction!

oh well, take it as another emo post. I am always emo, even though i tried so hard to kick this freaking habit away.

anyway, thanks melinda and jerome for cheering me up even though, i cant be happy for now. sorry.

time to chiong!

2007-09-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

This history grpwork is uber long time ago, my teammates and i did it. ((: And, yeah, its rather messy and till now, i still dont understand International history! It sucks man! =X Exams are round the corner n i feel a lil tension but not as bad as O lvl, i dunno why. The urge is there, but no driven purpose for me to do so! why? =( Oh well, i think i have to be more discipline. Moreover, those who are taking A lvl this year, they have to work so hard and some dont even score well. =( I hope that they can do better in A lvl. ((:

Today, Ms zhang returned us the 'functions' test, and guess wad i score? A BIG FATTY ZERO! whoohoo! AWESOME isnt it? =( Sigh, i think i am the lowest in class, but yeah i have to work hard NOW. Life has been very hectic and i have been very emotional lately. I am sorry that i have caused so much troubles and worries for so many ppl. I am sorry and do forgive and pardon me. (: thanks. And all the best ppl, for your promos! ((:

Oh yeah, yesterday susu lent me a book to read, its called 'rachel's tears'. I took abt 2 hrs to complete the book and its really nice and i got so engrossed and cried. This is a true story and ppl, go find the book and read it! ((: Its really nice! ((: Humaira, tell me wad you feel after you read finish alright(:

Lastly, thank you everyone for your concern and i am fine. And those ppl out there, WORK HARD! and tt includes me. ((:

p.s. I WANT I-POD VIDEO (RED)! AFTER PROMOS, I AM GONNA TO GET IT AFTER PROMOS! HOPEFULLY! =)

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2007-09-18T22:29:00.000+08:00

evolution has been changing everytime, every now and then. =( Its sucks to be in this generation or worse still, being the future generation. I hate the workload now and i hate EXAMS! why do we have them?=( sigh, life is like that. AND , 5 more days to PROMOS! Are you nervous? I AM! =X sheesh.
those who are taking their promos and A lvl soon, all the best eh! ((: Esp to alina, sann, ee cheong who are taking their H2 subs.((:
and those who are taking promos for the 1st year, all the best too! You guys can do it, esp, 07a3(pae),07a2(jae), 07a1(liwen's clique) and many more out there whom i forgot to write your names down. =D

=(

2007-09-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

I miss those times. the happy days. =X

Well, i didnt blog for almost a week. And, i was randomly arranging my pictures nicely and i stumped upon this picture when i was hearing nelly fortado-all the good things come to an end. Yeah, it's true. All the good things must come to an end. This was our PAE song, our song. (: We love each other, yes we do. And even though, we have gone to different paths, but our friendship still stays. ((: No matter where you guys are, you are always been in my heart! ((: I miss those days, those happy days whereby we dont have to study or mug. All we have to do is just PLAY! ((: Life is unfair furthermore, now is Sept and soon Oct and soon enough, it will be the end of year. Time flies and its really hard to accept the fact that, time waits for no man. I admit that sometimes, i have irrated others unknowingly or being childlike at times, and i decided to use this time to say a BIG SORRY to those who really cant stand me at times. I have to change, i know i have to. But, no one understands my agony. No one hears me out. I want to say is that at times i can be mature, at times i could be childlike. But, you guys always think that i am childlike, and if that is the case, fine then, i got nth to say. I just hope that our friendship will last long. And, since i am at fault, i am sorry.

In exactly 9 days time, i am going to have my promos. I didnt really studied much and furthermore, i feel useless at times. =( Others take one day to understand a subject, whereas i took like 3 days? OMG! Tt really sucks! =X And i am not as intelligent as others, as smart as others. I need extra help more than anyone. At the 1st place, i wonder why i chose this path to go, to suffer. I have thoughts of giving up, thoughts of quitting MI, but then again, i love my class and as well as my friends and TRACK! how could i do this? Sigh. =X All i could do now is to really mug real hard and not to get retain! If not, i might consider going to nafa taking fine arts or taking up some poly courses. =( Btw, i have received my diploma result and i attained a freaking C grade. Sigh, i have no idea should i continue taking it. Its like a waste of time and money where i could do other stuffs like working? =( The probablity of me getting promoted is rather slim. I think i could only passed my chinese and history which is kind of risky. And literature is really a nightmare to me! Its a torture! =X I did studied and practise much and i ended up getting grades like 3/25? oh my! I have no idea how to improve on it when the freaking exams is drawing near. =( And there are so much to study yet so lil time.

These days, i have been staying back in school for night study and i find it rather useful cos i am able to seek others for help. And i really want to say a BIG THANK YOU to humaira and melvin and albert!((: Thank you for teaching me math, history respectively. I am sorry to dissappoint you guys if i cant do well. I have been stressed up lately and have been thinking how to pass my subjects. =( The worst thing is that, my MP3 is spolit and i cant listen to nice music! =( darn! I really hope that i can get an i pod nano (red)! ((: And get it engraved my name on it. On a lighter note, i will be receiving a lappie i think haha.. LOL. And yeah, i was thinking for should i get a windbreaker which cost 85bucks (i have been eyeing tt for like mths!) or save up my money to get an ipod nano? (Its the next best alternative forgone!haha!)Perhaps, i should just save up for a rainy day. (:

p.s. These days, you haven been spending much time with us and i understand that. Its okay. (: I am not angry or pissed by the actions you have done. Its just that, without you, life has been a lil dull and no one to entertain me or crap with us at times. You have the freedom to choose who to go with, we cant stop you. Its okay that we didnt really meet up and get together for a week cos of some reasons and i think somehow we all have drift apart. All i want to say is that, we dont blame you. And since its just a small matter, i hope that if you have the time, join us. (: We really hope to see you talking crap with us. You have the choice to choose who you want to hang out with and we are not stopping you. It's just a lil boring without you. Dont feel guilty or wadsoeva. Just hope that our friendship will not turn sour and we will always be there for you if you need any help and most of all, we dont want you to be caught in the middle.

p.s. Lisa and the gang, sorry that i couldnt make it to Zhang hao's party even though i really want to. =( It's just SUCK when you know that you cant hang out with your close friends for like mths! It feels sucky and i dont want tt to happen. And i didnt meet up lina and the gang too. =( You guys are in poly and i am in jc, its really impossible to meet up. You guys are able to meet up easily but i cant. I am sorry that there are several occasions you guys wanted me to go hang out with you but i cant make it. Believe me, i am not selfish or wadsoeva or dont wanna to meet up guys up, its just tt time is not on my side. I am feeling stressed being caught in the middle. I cant breathe too. But, i have to priortise my time right, even though some say that i didnt priortise my time right. I am sorry. Furthemore, sometimes i could meet up guys up i cant be possible to call the whole lot of you cos there bound to be some ppl who cant make it. And our timings are always wrong and ended up meeting up 1 person or none. =( I really missed you guys! My dearest 5n1 ppl. I just cant. forgive me. I promise when i have the time i will meet up with you guys and hang out with you guys for the whole day. I hope that our friendship never gets strained or wad. (: take care, my dearest 5n1.

Melissa has flew off to Las Vegas and i really missed talking to her. =( Even so, i wish her all the best there and if she is free i hope that she could come back to visit us and that will be like a few years time? =( Melissa, i hope that you will get used to the weather conditions there and apply more lotions cos your skin is kinda of dry. =( And i hope that you missed us as much as we do. I really missed the time we talked and hang out and have fun. Life has been great with you around and you always help me out. You give me the strength to take a step forward and face god, you gave me hope to believe in him once again, and its you who brings me to your church and feel his presence again. I really enjoyed spending time with you and if its possible drop us an email or anything, I make sure that we will reply you. Take care, babe! ((: loves.

Btw, at last! i have signed up for the Spore marathon race this year !((: I have been longing to go to this race for like 2 years? and i am really looking forward to it and run with all my might! Though i signed up for a 10km route, but next year, i will challenged myself to join the 42.125km run! Afterall, i am a runner! haha..((: I hope to strive harder and excel much more in running!((: I cant wait to run anymore to shed my excessive fats. ((:

P.s all the things i have said above, no offense, its just my view. My own view. So it is subjective. Sorry. =(

more pictures.

2007-09-08T12:52:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHH... our faces are DISTORTED!

whose leg? oh! SUSU'S! LOL.

the techno-cat, retro-cat and pussycat! LOL.

morning craze.O.O

me and razia! i like this! YAY!!!!

((:

2007-09-08T12:43:00.000+08:00

when you wanna to do transformation, this is wad you should do-stretch.

kissy kissy..(by LIWEN!)

melvin's BOOBS! LOL

liwen is a fatty fat pig.... >.<

this is wad we do at liwen's hse last night. We are crazy over taking pictures. LOL. Liwen was the 1st one to knock out.We are supposed to mug for exams and she went to slp due to serious flu. =X And so, left melvin and me to mug. However, i knocked out at 3.30am and melvin knocked out at arnd 6am LOL. And we watched 'the guru' and eating soba at the same time.((: The show was uber funny la. hahaha. This morning, liwen's mama made us WAFFLES! YIPPY!!!((: haha... thanks, liwen's mum! Oh by the way, love sabbie alot alot!!((: She is so adorable! Terry-jon's dog is uber cute too! hahaha.. I love the both of them!! To conclude, i love take pictures using liwen's mac. And currently, all of us are rotting. -_-''
School is gonna to start soon, so boring. sigh. =X
p.s. STOP LAUGHING AT MY HAIR! Yours look more retarded than mine kay. LOL. hahaha xD

:-/

2007-09-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

I hate it when she does that. I am already a grown-up. I am really tired of all these shit. She meant well, i know. But, i cant help it. I know i am right. I didnt do anything immoral or anything bad. I just came home late due to studying and mugging. I hate that man. F***! I am sorry that i used that. Its just.. I dunno how to explain. Can she understand me? I have no one to turn to. I hate seeing all these rubbish. Others are able to stay up outside late in the night,or even ton outside. But i cant. I have to cook up some freaking reasons. The main thing i wanna to ton outside cos i wanna to study and i see that there is effect. The other time, i went to liwen's hse to study overnight, it really does help me. And in the end, i passed. And since, i think it is effective, i wanna to continue. It's not that i dont want to say the real reason, but do i think that she will allow? It is like near to zero possibliity. I want to be treated like an adult. It SUCKS being me. I cant wait to let go of everything. She cant understand me, neither anyone will. I am posting this cos, i have no one to talk to. Just ignore this entry.

p.s. i have cut my hair. LOL.xD
hoildays are going to be over. =( It is not even like holiday to me. =(

(:

2007-09-03T14:14:00.000+08:00

I want to learn many things.
I want to learn drums!
I want to learn taekwondo!
I want to learn swimming!
I want to learn dragonboat!
I want to learn guitar!
I want to learn piano!
I want to learn tennis!
I want to learn canoeing!
I want to learn scuba diving!
and more....
Hopefully, after the promos i can learn most of the things, for i am AMBITIOUS! hurhur. xD
I feel such a loser. =( Everyone knows at least one thing, except me.
I feel like a failure, therefore, i will train!((:
to be a better sportswoman! and musically inclined! hahaha.(:
Who wanna to join with me these things? LOL
I guess, Liwen is able to teach me diving, swimming, canoeing.
LOL. xD xD xD

running, pure joy!

2007-09-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

Please ignored what Champa has wrote on the video. Its just rubbish. haha. Champa, when i see you in school, you will get it from me! hahaha..((: Anyway, thanks for helping me upload lar, cos, my comp cant upload it. I have no idea why. =(

Today was a boring day for me. Seriously boring! I didnt study at all! =( And i have been browzing tree's photo albums and shali's videos! I didnt know she is so nerd last time. Now, she is sooo pretty lar! haha..((:Shali's videos were awesome too! (: And i just recieved an sms from liwen, she is back from malaysia. I wonder how she do. And she said that she might die in the course of her exams, what bullshit is that ! hahaha..(: Anyway, i am happy that she is safe and sound! I miss you , CHAN LILI! ((:

I love the videos that i asked champa to post. haha. Its all about running! ((: The passion is back! wee! I love running! I adore running!(: Some ppl asked, why do i run? My answer is, you will get the answer after you run. ((: haha.. I love running soooo much more than anything else, but i never did make it to national level except for twice i think. =( I want to be like those elite runners. Not to be famous, but to enjoy it. Savvy every moment of running! hahah.. ((:

2007-09-02T20:37:00.000+08:00

hi...fiona's fren champa here. fiona asked me to post this on her blog because for some reason , she can't.anyway, hi you ppl out there! okay i better get off in case fiona comes here and sees me writing nonsense......bye!!!!!

fiona says..........."like omg! i like so wanna watch hairspray!it's like so totally rad!"

okay she made me post another video.....so i'll write a bit more nonsense...let's see...my name is ha thuc champa, i'm in the same class as fiona in MI. my blog can be seen at the right........http://stormyice.blogspot.com .copy and paste that on your address bar , view my blog , then tag if u want! haha!!! i welcome anyone and everyone to come!

okay gotta go now, but it was really nice writing this.....bye!!!!